See you on Mars

10

  "He would've been better off with me," Kiyoko said calmly yet truthfully. "If it were me he would still be able to see and wouldn't be stuck in the emergency room but no, he had to choose you. You just ruined his life, I could've done what you did and I wouldn't have lost his eye sight. You're nothing but a joke and you deserve to be the one in the E.R, not Hajimine"
     "I know" Oikawa nodded hands trembling like they did when he was worried. He kept his head down and let her words sink in.
     "Maybe if you just were to disappear you'd fix everyone's problems. If you just never came here in the first place you know how many lives would have been saved. Do you know how many people died because you took up an empty cot?" Oikawa grabbed his hair tightly and sat down, he didn't have the strength to stand up against her. He wanted to scream, he wanted her to go away, he wanted to run, run away and never make Iwaizumi hear his voice again.
    He sat on the floor with his back against the wall looking up unsuccessfully attempting to contain his tears. His face was red and the room was spinning for him, he gasped for air still tightly holding his hair. He coughed up blood which landed on his knees.
    "That's not true," a voice said. Oikawa looked at where it was coming from, the person being blurry through his tears. It was him, it was Oikawa..... a second one "Iwaizumi never said that, he said how thankful he was for me. Not how someone else could make him happier, he said no one else could."
    Oikawa relaxed his body and smiled, he laughed out loud and Kiyoko stared at him. The other Oikawa smiled and Kiyoko backed up putting her hands standing in defense.
     "Listen to me" She yelled "You are nothing! You're nothing to him! You cause Hajimine nothing but problems!" Oikawa smiled at this, the tears in his eyes gone.
     "You're not going to manipulate and control me anymore" Oikawa said "You should just give up because Iwaizumi told me that he needed me and how he loved me. His voice is a lot louder than yours. It's been great knowing you but I'm ready to cut this tie..... goodbye" Oikawa smiled as the room began to fade along with the second Oikawa and Kiyoko.
     Oikawa woke up and looked around the hospital room. He looked at the empty bed next to him and felt tears staining the sheets. These weren't his normal tears, he smiled through them this time and instead of feeling guilty he felt relieved.   
   Oikawa laughed to himself before standing up and opening the curtains. He looked at the white snow and the blue sky. The room groaned as the boys began to wake up from the sudden burst of light.
   "Good morning sleepy heads" Oikawa smiled
   "Someone's chipper this morning" Atsumu groaned
    "Close the curtains asshole" Mattsun said, throwing a pillow at Oikawa's head.
    "It's such a beautiful day outside though" He giggled picking up the pillow and placing it on Iwaizumi's bed.
     "He's lost it" Osamu said staring at the ceiling
     "I did not lose it! You guys just need to learn how to appreciate a nice day" Oikawa huffed. He wanted to treasure every day he still had left. He knew that the time was running low and he knew he couldn't stop it so he decided to run with it instead of against it.
   Oikawa smiled and the nurse walked in to wake the boys up but left once she saw they were awake already. As they left for class he skipped down the hall in front of the pack. Oikawa walked in and smiled at Kiyoko and the world.
   As much as he tried, his mind still wandered and he thought about Iwaizumi all day. He closed his eyes in an attempt to tame his thoughts. He took deep breaths and was in control, he opened his eyes and looked around the room at the miserable patients, at that moment he knew he wanted to make it his mission to make their lives a bit better. His priority was Iwaizumi but he knew that he'd make the ace proud by doing this so he started thinking of how he could achieve his goal.
    The bell rang and class was over. The students slowly began to stand up but Oikawa couldn't contain himself and started running down the hallway. He made it to the nurse's desk and asked if he could see Iwaizumi.
   The nurse opened the door for him and he walked in to see the familiar sight of Iwaizumi hooked on all machines. He felt the same sting in his chest and grabbed Iwaizumi's hand causing him to spring up,
     "It's alright Iwa Chan, it's just me" Oikawa said
    "Oikawa..." Iwaizumi said
    "Hey, how are you doing?" Oikawa asked, Iwaizumi bit the inside of his cheek and lowered his head. Even though he couldn't see Oikawa he could feel Oikawa and his worry grow.
     "Do you want me to tell you what you want to hear or the truth?" Iwaizumi asked. Oikawa thought about the question but decided he wanted to hear the truth.
    "I... I wanna hear the truth..." Oikawa said, unsure of his answer. He bit his lip and played with his hand due to the stress.
   "Honestly, I feel like shit, my throat feels like it's on fire, my head is spinning, and it's difficult to breath. The only thing keeping me alive is machines and IVs" Oikawa felt his world crash and swallowed back his worry.
   "Iwa Chan, is there at least a chance? Is there any hope?" Oikawa asked, his voice cracking and tears filling his eyes.
   "I don't know. They won't give me an upright answer."
   "Oh"
    "Don't be sad though, if I were gonna die I'm sure they would've told me or you by now so I'd say yeah, there is still hope." Iwaizumi smiled, he didn't need sight to see Oikawa's face. He knew the exact expression the setter was making right now.
    "Iwa Chan, you said you love me right? That means you can be honest with me. What did they really say?"
   "You can read me like an open book huh?" Iwaizumi smirked, he wasn't sure whether or not to tell Oikawa the truth or if he should keep quiet. Telling him could shatter his spirits but not telling him would make him hate Iwaizumi, but maybe that was for the best. Iwaizumi wanted Oikawa to love him but felt that selfish.
  "Iwa Chan, you know you can tell me anything right?" Oikawa said
   "Yeah, I'm tired" Iwaizumi said
    "Stop trying to change the subject" Oikawa barked "Do you trust me or not?"
     "Fine, the doctors said I have a few months left to live," Iwaizumi revealed.
     "Oh, I have to use the bathroom real quick," Oikawa said walking out of the room. He ran as soon as he got to the hallway and locked the door to the nearest bathroom. He pressed his whole body weight against the door and slowly slid down, sitting against the door. Oikawa clung to the blue fabric of his hospital gown and attempted to calm his breathing.
    Oikawa hugged his knees and rested his head. 'Wow, I only have a few months left with him, why? Why does our time have to be so short? Even though I've only known him a few months it feels like I've known him a lifetime..... and I wish I got a lifetime but.... I guess some things only happen on mars..... Maybe one day we'll become aliens and we could live on mars together...... I just wish we could go back in time so I could love him longer.'
    Oikawa sat there and softly smiled through his tear stained cheeks, dreaming of a new life they could lead on mars. Aliens never get sick and they never die, it sounded perfect Oikawa hugged his knees tighter before letting go. He wanted to treasure every moment he had with his ace so he dried his face and walked back to the room.
   "Are you sure that was a wise choice?" The nurse asked
    "I don't have the heart to tell him...."
   "Your surgery is scheduled, it's all or nothing, are you sure you would like to proceed?"
    "Yeah, anything that could give me the chance of spending more time with him I'll gladly take." Iwaizumi smiled, he heard the door open and assumed it was Oikawa. He felt his heart race as he heard his familiar voice.
    "Hey Iwa Chan, I'm back" Oikawa smiled softly, it was obvious that there was pain in his voice in which he wasn't trying to mask.
    "Hey Oikawa, you ok?" Iwaizumi asked, trying to find Oikawa's hands.
    "Do you want to get away?" Oikawa asked, pulling a chair behind him and sitting down. He held Iwaizumi's hand to which Iwaizumi relaxed a bit.
    "Get away?"
     "Yeah, we could live as aliens, aliens never get sick and they never die. Think about how fun it would be to explore the galaxy with you. We could go to every planet! I wanna go to mars but Jupiter sounds like fun too! We also have to go to Uranus, just to say we went" Oikawa laughed, lightening the mood.
      "That would be fun, I'd love that" Iwaizumi softly smiled, dreaming of a different world where they could be together forever and not have their time cut short.
Oikawa woke up and looked at the letters next to him. He looked at his hand which had an ink stain printed on the side. He picked up the letters and began shuffling through them, it was December 23rd and Oikawa was looking through the Christmas gifts he had made for all his friends in the sanitarium. He looked over all the letters and Iwaizumi's gift which he had made the night prior.
    He held iwaizumi's gift close to his heart close to his heart . Oikawa walked to Iwaizumi's room since they had the day off. He held the gift in his hand and took a deep breath before knocking at the door.
   He walked in the room and saw Iwaizumi was still asleep. He opened the curtains and looked out the window. It was raining, he missed the snow but he knew how much Iwaizumi loved the rain. He opened the window and stuck his arm out the window. A cold wind blew through the room as rain began to fall on the window sill. The rain soaked into Oikawa's arm and ran down the side before sticking together and falling to the ground. Oikawa watched the fall from the second floor as the rain would plummet in the grass.
     Oikawa heard the sheets ruffle and turned to see Iwaizumi attempting to look around the room. Oikawa quickly shoved the gift in his pocket and turned his attention towards Iwaizumi.
     "Good morning Iwa Chan," Oikawa said, pulling his hand away from the window.
      "Good morning Sleeping beauty....  is it just me or is it cold in here?" Oikawa noticed Iwaizumi's goosebumps and purple lips. Iwaizumi still had bandages over his eyes and looked like he lost weight significantly. If Oikawa were to guess Iwaizumi probably weighed less than 100 pounds. His skin was pale and his hands had lost their life. You could see the blue and green of his veins clearly and his hair was thinning.
     "Sorry, I had the window open" Oikawa said
    "Is it raining?" Iwaizumi asked listening to the sound of rainfall
      "Yeah,"
      "I wonder if it rains on mars" Iwaizumi said
      "Nah, mars doesn't have an atmosphere like earth does so it can't rain"
      "Maybe that's a good thing" Iwaizumi thought out loud, "I always used the sound of the rain to comfort me but maybe on mars I won't need it. That's what I'm hoping for at least"
       "Well you won't need rain on mars because you have me" Oikawa smiled, "Just wait for me there OK?"
      "Yeah," Iwaizumi nodded and softly smiled. "....Do you think you could take me to the window to feel the rain?"
     "Yeah sure," Oikawa said as he walked to Iwaizumi's bed. Oikawa grabbed Iwa's side and Iwaizumi swung his legs over the side, He grabbed Oikawa's shoulders for support and stood up slowly.
      "Ok I'm ready," Iwaizumi said, taking a step towards the window. Oikawa looked behind him and took a step backwards. They slowly made their way to the window where Iwaizumi rested one hand on the sill and kept his other arm around Oikawa's shoulder.
      Iwaizumi shifted his weight to Oikawa and held his arm out to feel the rain.
      'Thank you' Iwaizumi said to the rain, 'Thank you for all the times you comforted me.... Thank you for all the times you were there for me..... Thank you for being consistent in my life.... Thank you for never leaving.... Thank you for filling the silence all those sleepless nights.... But.....  I don't need you anymore... I have him now....'
      'It's been a pleasure..... Iwaizumi....  goodbye' The rain seemed to whisper as Iwaizumi pulled his hand back from the window. He felt a sense of relief when his hand was back inside, he knew he didn't need it anymore. He had somebody now who he could rely on for the rest of his life.
    "I'm ready to go back now," Iwaizumi said as they made their way back to the bed the same way they came. Iwaizumi laid back in the bed and Oikawa sat in his usual blue chair.
    "Tomorrow's Christmas eve" Oikawa said
      "Really? Wow, where did the time go?" Iwaizumi chuckled a bit. He began playing with his hands which went unnoticed by the pretty boy.
     "Yeah, oh I got you your Christmas gift!" Oikawa smiled, easing the tension in the air.
     "Oh I can't wait" Iwaizumi smiled
      "What did you get me?" Oikawa asked
       "I can't tell you, you have to wait until Christmas"
      "But that's so boring" Oikawa whined "I want my gift now"
       "Stop whining like a little bitch" Iwaizumi huffed
        "Shut up" Oikawa blushed.
        "When we get to mars we should try to find a space shuttle from earth to scare NASA, make them think that there's and alien invasion" Oikawa said causing Iwaizumi to laugh
      "Are you stupid?" He laughed "We wanna plan a surprise attack, we can't warn them because then they might take us to area 51."
    "It would be fun to go to area 51 though, maybe we could meet alien friends from different planets."
    "And what are you gonna do with your friends in area 51 when they take you for experimentation?"
        "Well I'll call you to abduct them with our U.F.O then we could experiment on them" Iwaizumi let out a loud laugh, it was the most he's laughed in awhile. He laughed until his stomach ached.