The Gifted and the Losers

Pang & Wave

"P'Inn...we're going."Pang said to Inn.

Inn just nodded. Feeling the loneliness inside. Missing his Sun.

" It would be wiser and better that I stayed with Pang, I know that seeing me would only stress you out." Wave told Inn without looking at the young man.

Inn also thought so. It is for the best.

Pang's face slightly get dimmer. He felt a little bit vile taste of jealousy when he heard the soft tone that Wave used in talking to Inn.

And Wave didn't missed that look. He is too observant and perceptive not to notice Pang's reaction. He just let it slide knowing that talking about it in Inn's presence would do them no good.

Pang and Wave went back to Oh's apartment. Both of them were not talking. They don't feel like talking to each other. Not, since both of them were obviously thinking of much more delicate and essential issues.

Wave went to the washroom first to wash up. He decided to bathe himself under the lukewarm water of the shower. The splash of the water, it's warm, somehow makes his body and mind relax. After washing up he saw Pang sprawled in the bed already, eyes tightly closed. He didn't know if he's really already asleep or just faking it.

Wave is staring at Pang's face. This dumb and stupid person, how could he be so handsome and cute at the same time. How could he make him want and like him so much, he can't resist.

Two years ago, he hated Pang so much. He didn't know why. It's like hate at first sight. His dumb and carefree look annoyed the hell out of him. Warmth radiates on Pang at that time, but Wave at that moment is still in the dark, he can't free himself from the claw of the past that's still hunting him back then. The claw of distrust and a bit of guilt. But he saw something in Pang's eyes back then. A thing too familiar with him. The look of boredom. He could see in his eyes, how Pang is looking for something that is hidden. Being in the same class as Pang didn't change much of how he felt for the taller boy. He hated how Pang do stupid and irrational things but sincerely cares for others' welfare. He is also too nosy like his friends Namtarn and Ohm. He hated how Pang is good with words while he barely express his thoughts to others. Well to be fair to him, both Pang and him are honest. Pang is someone who would tell you honestly and sincerely things that you usually wanted to hear while him, he is just brutally honest. Wave would blurt it out to your face the bitterest of truths without hesitation and remorse. It was his advantage and disadvantage, and he knows that all of his friends liked and hated him for that attitude. But that's how he is. Hell if he would change just to please other. He is actually toning it down for awhile now but removing it totally from his system would be a no, no.

So what change, how come he already have fallen for this person sleeping beside him, he despised so much not so long ago.

Pang opened his eyes, he made him believe in trust and friendship again. That there are still people like Pang that he could trust, that would befriend him not because they wanted to use him but because they really wants him to be their friend. Flawed or not. He is still the brutally honest Wave but now he used words that would make people understand him better. And it is Pang who opened the door for that.

He leaned and moved his face closer to Pang. He would like to kiss him on his lips but he's too afraid to wake the sleeping man. Thus, he change the direction of his kiss, he kissed Pang on his forehead and smiled at him. Just when he decided to moved away Pang's eyes just open. Of course, even Wave would panic at that, he tried to moved away quickly but Pang caught him and placed his arms on his neck and pulled him. Pang crashed their lips together.

"I was actually waiting for that kiss." Pang said smirking. "I've missed you so much."

Wave raised his eyebrow.

"Fuck Pang we were together the whole day." Wave said in disbelief.

"could you possibly imagine how scared I am when I realised that you could be sleeping with another man?"

Wave blushed thinking of that scene.

"and to see that you're too soft and talking to him sweetly....I felt like exploding inside."

"And how am I suppose to talk to P'Inn?"

Pang just sulked hearing that. He doesn't know what to say.

"I'm sure that we both know how he must be feeling knowing that his boyfriend is somewhere in our dangerous world and... Pang... If he was you... What would you feel knowing that in another world your boyfriend is someone else's boyfriend..worse he is the boyfriend of a close friend...."

" So we're boyfriends? " Pang asked for confirmation with his eyes shining forgetting the other details of Wave's monologue.

What the hell is wrong with his brain? After everything that I have told him what stuck to this idiot is that specific information caused of the slipped of my tongue. Why the hell did I said those words to him. I forgot that this man is really good with words. He is a linguist. He is good in persuading people and he's also good in twisting their own words against them. Wave released a huge sigh. Then lay down and turn his back against Pang who is currently annoying him.

After awhile of teasing, Pang decided to stop and laid down beside Wave. Staring at the ceiling he started to talk.

"I caught everything that you have said... I am actually at the same boat with P'Inn... Just like him I can't stop myself from wondering... why in this world even though we both exist we were not together..."

And Wave even though still awake didn't said anything but he felt a little spike prickle his heart hearing how painful and difficult it is for Pang as well.

So Sun and Oh are them in this another life. They were best friends. They were just friends. And even though he knows that Inn is Sun's lover and that they've love each other. He couldn't just stop himself thinking of that reality and it pain him.

And after some pondering he decided to tell his last thoughts. Not moving from that position he said "But I'm not Sun and you're not Oh... We are Pang and Wave."

And only with that Pang chose to put his arms on his face covering his eyes and give himself a bitter sweet smile.