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18. pain

TW!! mentioning of abuse and violence.

rose

i recalled it when he mentioned her name after i mentioned jasmine

it must hurt really bad.

Yoongi
can i call u?

Me
yeah sure.

Yoongi called me and i immediately accepted the call.

it really felt nice speaking to him.

"hey." he spoke

"hey yoongi."

"you sound better darling."

"and you don't, i'm sorry."

"it's okay. it was unexpected, her death. she didn't have to leave this world earlier" he spoke in a sad tone.

"mind telling me what happened? please open up if you want to, you would feel better."

he let out a sigh and continued.

"it happened a year ago. i never knew it could be the last time i would see her. she just left to the store to buy something but- she never came back."

i gulped

i wanted him to stop

but i let him continue.

"we knew that something was wrong. it took her time to come back home. i left home to find her but she was no where to be found. i panicked, i c-cried but i couldn't do anything to f-find her." he sounded broken.

"i suddenly received a text message from a particular number that i didn't know. an address was mentioned. i immediately panicked and started to overthink that something was definitely wrong."

"i rushed to the place and opened the door of the room, just to find my sister laying there with cuts and bruises..." he paused before continuing, "lifeless."

i gulped again.

i bit my lower lips. why couldn't i speak?

my hands were shaking, i didn't want to feel it.

this is awful, i hate it.

"i feared, i lost her. i didn't expect it. i lost my own sister who was my biggest inspiration. i lost her." i heard him sob.

"that's when i realized, a monster of a man, came straight up to me and informed. it took everything in me to control my anger until he spoke. he went against her consent and took advantage of her, did what she didn't want to do, tortured her and finally, k-killed her." he completely broke down.

that's it. that's the moment i felt chills running through my spine.

i was shaking, tears kept rolling down my cheeks as all the memories came in hitting me like a truck.

it was blurry, i couldn't hear him any further. my heartbeat increased and it felt like everything stopped around me.

a panic attack arose in me as i dropped my phone on the floor, i didn't mind if it broke but before i fell unconscious all i could think about was,

the pain she felt
and i knew how it felt.