I'm here at my room, it's 6pm and I'm doing my home when I received a call from Jisoo.
"Chaeng" she said, I hear her sob so she must be crying. "What's the matter chu?" I asked her.
"My heart ache. What should I do? I can't stop my heart to ache." She said. I can still hear her sob. "Why did he have to broke up with me? What's wrong with me Chaeng?" She continued.
Well, this is not the first time that she called about this. 2 weeks ago, her boyfriend Jinyoung broke up with her. Well the reason, he said that she is boring.
That jerk! How could he said that. Jisoo is the most cheerful person that I know. She's so popular in school because of her attitude.
I think I know why she find her boring. Because Jisoo doesn't want to do it. You know what I mean. And I respect her for that. That guy doesn't understand that.
"There's nothing wrong with you Chu. It's his lost. Stop crying, you'll find someone better." I said. You'll find someone just like me chu! I said internally.
Junior year when I found out that I'm inlove with my best friend. Only stupid person won't fall inlove with her. She is so sweet, caring, cheerful, understanding, kind and most of all, she's freaking gorgeous!
"I don't know what to do Chaeng. I love him." She replied. "Come on Chu, you're beautiful, you're talented, you have a great personality. Don't waste your time sulking because of him." I told her. I mean, that jerk is not even that good looking.
I can still hear her crying, so to make her stop, I need to say the thing that I don't want to say. "I'll talk to him tomorrow, I'll try to convince him to talk with you."
"Really? You're gonna do that? Thank you so much Chaeng, you're the best of the best friend in the world!" She replied with full of excitement in her voice. Yup! Best friend. I'm just a best friend!
My heart ache because of this. I don't see what she saw from him. I'm so jealous of him. Why can't it be me Chu? I know I can treat you better. Just let me prove it you. I said those words in my head.
I don't have courage to confess. I don't want to jeopardize our friendship because of this feelings that I have for her.
We ended the call. I sigh. I'm about to continue doing my homework when my Mom call me for dinner.
"How's school?" Mom asked me. "Nothing special, same old things, lecture then homework." I simply replied. "How about you and Jisoo? Are you too okay? It's been a while since she came here. Did you girls fight?" She asked.
Jisoo always come here in our house before she met Jinyoung. She always spend the night, we always do our homework together. This is like her second home.
"We're good mom, we didn't fight. We're both busy right now, we have a group project and she's with a different group so we're both busy." I replied. Mom only look at me.
I can't tell my mom about my feelings for my best friend. I'm not gay. I'm sure of it. But when I met Jisoo in my sophomore year, I thought that it's just a simple best friend thing. I never actually question my sexuality until Junior year. I'm always happy to see her, I'm excited when we're doing a sleepover, I always want to be with her and I'm starting to get jealous when she's talking to someone else.
After I finished my dinner I went upstairs to finish my homework and go to bed.
Tomorrow is gonna be a long day.
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I'm here at the campus field waiting for Jinyoung to finish their practice. He's part of the football team. I still can't believe I'm doing this.
