My deprssing rants

Depressing rants of my stupid ass life

ACQUAINTANCE (Book #3 - EMAILS TO DAN)

acquaintance [uh-kweyn-tns] noun -a person known to one, but usually not a close friend. After years of Dan and Phil not talking since they moved out of their flat, they start to talk. Dan will try to make it up to Phil for ignoring him in the beginning. Phil doesn't know how it will go, but he goes for it and contin...

snapchat

[completed] philly: who's this? danhowell: your future husband ; copyright © 2016 //highest ranking: #4

Fine, I'll leave (Phanfiction)

"GET OUT" Arguments happen and Phil is told to leave the apartment. Who's knows if it's the last time Dan will talk to him... "Fine, I'll leave" Phil is missing, it's been 2 weeks and Dan blames himself entirely. ** This is supposed to be a emotional story** ( WARNINGS: there may be swearing, violence and depression )

Depression | phan [completed]

Dan Howell is depressed. Phil Lester is not. Dan Howell doesn't want anyone to know. Phil Lester just wants to help. Dan Howell thinks he's alone. Phil Lester wants to be there. Dan Howell pretends he's okay. Phil Lester knows he isn't. ///// *trigger warning* and very short chapters [completed: May 9, 2016]

He Speaks Suicide (Phan AU)

TRIGGER WARNING: If self harm, blood, abuse, suicide, etc disturb you, then maybe this isn't the fic for you. I have plenty of others if you don't like the subject of this one. Do you ever just want to be a raindrop? Falling and falling until you hit the ground and that's when it all ends. **This fanfic will contain...

sad quotes

» self explanatory « - i am not promoting self harm in any way, shape or form - only a few of these quotes are my own

fuckboy

[completed] philgon: she can fuck you good, but i can fuck you better ; copyright © 2016

dear phil ;; phan

Dear Phil, It's three am. I can't sleep. So, I'm writing to you.

Phan Texts 2

I'M BACK BITCHES :) Dan and Phil's text messages! Enjoy :)

You're Driving Me Crazy - Phan

You're Driving Me Mental sequel. Phil is slowly going insane. Well, more 'insane' then he previously thought he was. Dan is definitely more 'insane' then before, making Phil, the supporting boyfriend, want to look after him. One day Phil snaps and walks out on Dan, moving in with his parents for a while. Feeling guil...

Unknown // Phan

Unknown: Is this Dan Howell? Dan: Uh yeah, who is this and how did you get my number? Unknown: does it matter? Dan: Yep, because this is my private phone number.

Human (A Dan and Phil Imagine) *TRIGGER WARNING*

Sometimes you just can't fight off all of the demons

The most depressing Phanfic you will ever read.

"This is the most fun I've ever had."

The Benefits Project ; phan au

Dan Howell is a timid boy, who always does as he is told. He was once friends with Phil Lester, the 'bad influence' who soon ditches Dan for the popular group in Year 7. After five years of not talking to each other, they're partnered in a project and Phil's wants to win Dan over just like he has with most of their y...

You're Driving Me Mental - Phan

Phil is the new patient at an adolescent mental health unit. A young Dan is told to keep an eye on him but apparently, not caring causing things to go down hill. Will Phil get better, for Dan, as well as himself? ~ COMPLETE ~ BOOK ONE ~

Adopted By LDShadowLady And Smallishbeans

Cassie and Harley are orphans that watch LDShadowlady and Smallisbeans and a few more youtubers to help them survive middle school. Harley is very shy but outgoing when you get to know her and her parents dropped her on the orphanage porch when she was 2 months old. Cassie is akward when she first meets people and t...

Texts•PHAN AU

Dan somehow ended up with phils number and decided to text him. Dan: hi, so my name is [dan] Phil: oh I've seen you on YouTube! Dan: oh god I cringe - WARNING ⚠️️️‍ SMUT FLUFF NO DEATH NO CHEATING SIDE SHIPS MENTIONS OF ARTISTS AND I EXPECT NO HATE that's it mates enjoy ;) xx

Mend My Broken Pieces {A PhanFiction}

WARNING; Contains some strong language as well as self harm and abuse. Please do not read if you are easily offended. Dan Howell; Bullying. Abuse. Self Harm. Torture. Broken. Phil Lester; Alone. New. Deserted. Abused. Wounded. Meeting Dan Howell, broken, bleeding, and alone, was not Phil Lester's intention. Flicking t...

PHAN CUTE

This is the first phan fiction I have ever written, so tell me how you like it. AND I will actually update, unlike all of the other writers on here. Okay BYEE If you're looking for smut, then you should look elsewhere.

// Sad Phan Stories //

A collection of sad stories. TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM, SUICIDE AND DEATH

Anorexia; Phan

"I never wanted this. I never planned this. So how do you think I'll get over this horrible disease that literally is eating me away to nothing?" Daniel Howell, a sixteen year old who lives an ordinary life but he has a secret. A secret that he had never told anyone. He is a target of anorexia nervosa. Trigger Warnin...

I used to hate him, but then his little sister told me there dad beats them.

Sam protects his little sister from there brutal father day after day and now some one else knows but thins might not be a good thing for Sam and his sitter. this is only a bref the real thing will star with the nxt ch. Created by kanewolf111 on Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Drowning in Depression ➾ PhanFiction

Dan cuts himself, and Phil doesn't know. ( warning : depression, cutting, maybe attempted suicide ) TRIGGER WARNING DONE!!

The Lion and the Llama (Phanfiction)

*TRIGGER WARNING* Dan and Phil start having feelings for each other, but after one of Dan's nightmares causing him wanting Phil to sleep with him the rest of the night, things start spiraling out of control. (Phan, self harm, swearing etc etc etc) Ok, I'm terrible at descriptions, but if you wanna know what actually h...

Nope. (Phan)

*text fic* **mentions of depression, anxiety, suicide, and swearing** Also the majority of this is text, so I'm not going to worry about spelling or grammar errors

Fighter-A Phan Story

Dan Howell and Phil Lester are constantly haunted by Dan's suicide attempt. A story about love, depression, and recovery. This is a series adapted from the one shot, Skinny Love. Read it here:http://www.wattpad.com/story/3493044-skinny-love-phan Triggers: Suicide, depression, boyxboy Author Note: Written by request

our little boy // phan

Dan and Phil have been married since 2022 now they have a urge to have a baby, there both men so it's physically impossible. They want to adopt, will they be good parents read to find out (Babys age when adopted is 6 months) Highest ranking - #30 in #phan

Emails To Dan

Dan and Phil's friendship has ended. They moved out from their flat and went their separate ways. Phil has tried to keep in touch with Dan, but he never answers. All of his emails are unanswered, but that doesn't mean Dan never reads them.

Cutting- A Phil Lester Imagine

Phillip Michael Lester. Dork, Idiot, but we all love him dearly. Little do his Phillions, and his girlfriend, know, he cuts. He is depressed. Phil's depression will cause problems for him and his girlfriend, You. Daniel James Howell.Sarcastic, Smart Ass, but he is not what he seems. Dan has been your best friend for y...