Where's my savior?

I used to view the world around me in purples and pinks and shades of comforting blue, but now it all seems to be this uneasy gray color. As if everything that ever brought me comfort was dipped in this unfamiliar gray liquid that I sink deeper into, unable to grasp onto anything I used to know.

"I used to imagine people like little mugs filled with creamy and warm hot chocolate inside. They'd bring me warmth and comfort on all my cold days, and let me swim in their oceans of sugary brown waters. But for now I'm swimming in cold lonely waves that push me back and forth, wondering where it all went wrong. "

"As a child I was loved, and I felt love in everything around me. I felt like the trees I walked under loved me and cared for me and the sun wanted to protect me. It felt like the birds were watching out for me and the clouds shielded me like cotton candy blankets. Nothing felt scary, nothing could hurt me. I never understood why ignorance was bliss until I realized how the clouds look so ordinary to me now, or really, how ordinary I must look to the clouds now. "