My past, thoughts and feelings for Yuri

Warning: In the text it is among other things also about depression, dead and homicidal thoughts.

Originally, I wanted to make the whole thing by the way a video but well, on the one hand, I'm not the best when it comes to talk freely about myself (if I incidentally times in a video eg. DDLC something about me but otherwise it goes rather so naja xD), on the other hand I would first want to make another video (about my secondary school time), so that you understand the things from this one even better, for which I would have to make two more (kindergarten and elementary school time) that play before, which is why I have now simply summarized everything here more or less with over 100000 words xD

By the way, I used the word "mantra" a few times in the text, although it should actually be called "tulpa".