I thought I was their friend, but they treated me badly as they use me, acting like I am puppet to them for them all to use as they expect me to take all the beating and the pain they all cause me. I push myself away from it all, hopeing for all the pain to go away as I pretend that I felt nothing this whole time, when the pain felt like I was drowning, dying inside, but not this time, they have pushed me too hard, I ain't backing down this time round, it's my time to shine, either in their blood or pain - C.W.