𝙹𝚘𝚑𝚗 𝙲𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚎 - 𝓯𝓲𝓷𝓲𝓼 𝓥𝓲𝓽𝓪𝓮 𝓷𝓸𝓷 𝓐𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓲𝓼

𝓙𝓸𝓱𝓷 𝓒𝓸𝓷𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓷𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓮 has such an unique way to see the world: he knows unimaginable things about life and afterlife but it wasn't his choice, he was just born like that, he was born with a thing he called "𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓖𝓲𝓯𝓽 " , something that we may think of as magic but is actually truer than a cold blade piercing your chest. The Gift's is like a joke of the fate, made by the devil himself to torture John and he would have given it away and forgot about all that darkness immediately if he only could but he can't so he has to go by seeing things normal people just see in their worst nightmares and trying to survive with this horrifying weight on his shoulders.
John isn't an usual human being, he's a man who literally has to face the pains of hell, and no one ever saw him surrendering , but this is only an image that he gives to himself, this is the shield with which he protects himself from life, if only someone had ever stopped to look him in the eyes, his sad deep big brown eyes, if only someone hadn't treated him like an 𝓸𝓾𝓽𝓬𝓪𝓼𝓽, an arrogant half-man fool, he would have understood that John is a good man after all... because he is, he has always been but he had to hide the child, the boy and the man he never could be and always had to imprison him in the deepest of his soul to simply be John Constantine: 𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓗𝓮𝓵𝓵𝓫𝓵𝓪𝔃𝓮𝓻, the rude asshole that everyone ends up hating, the one even God hates... And it is so difficult to keep a soul alive without ever having experienced anything but pain, terror, hatred and death, without have never known love, without have never lived life, because he never had an usual normal life and to be honest his life has never even been a real life, it is insipid, empty and alone and the only thing that gives it meaning is to protect the world, that world that hates and derides him so much, from the dark truth that hides behind eve