One Hundred Attempts
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"Instead I stood frozen in place. My vocal chords silent and my mouth glued shut."
Dan Howell has tried speaking his mind for years now, but the words have never left his mouth. Not once. Now he's living with his best friend, Phil Lester, and he's even more desperate to say those three simple words. But will it be worth it? Will it change everything about his life? And will those three words be the ones he initially thought he would say?
***DISCLAIMER***
I do not own any youtube characters portrayed or places described. This story is for enjoyment only.
This is also my first fanfic ever so I'm sorry if it's terrible.
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