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Honestly, what's opinion on ffs?

last night someone followed me and asked on my message board "can i know where you're from" and i replied with "nope >:3" and today i woke up, the message is gone, a reply under my previous announcement is gone, they are no longer following me, and the votes/reading list notification from the person are gone too. i feel like the person muted/blocked me ToT
          
          i don't remember the username but i remember a bit of their profile. nowwww im wondering if im too rude even with the ">:3" emoticon ToT did i do something wrong in replying it i kinda wanna brush it off, but i also wanna laugh cz of my stupidity and also feel sad a bit 

So the change in my eating habits has finally started to affect me. I'm having fever rn, my whole body is paining and i even feel dizzy. Today i needed to go to school because I had to submit some important papers to teacher and today is the due date but mama didn't allow. Nobody is at home rn, i have to sweep the house and cook lunch but my fever is quite high, i don't know how'll I do it. And i literally can't believe I survived a month with 3 to 4 hours of sleep a day and still managed to concentrate on my studies well. *sighs* Guess I need someone like sung to guide me...........jk, ofcourse I've to take care of myself by myself.

screamed and cried out loud while nobody's home and now i feel numb
          
          god, let me feel numb all the time please i beg you

no hate but...... if you're not korean pls avoid calling me "unnie" it's so awkwArd and weird ngl and i'm not even a korean bro ToT
          
          recently i got a few dms on my main and somehow i think they are new to kpop because annyeonghaseyo jebal and unnie are everywhere im shitting tears fr 

saw someone asking an author if her stories are bl because they dont like reading bl and the author said
          
          "i've stated that i don't support lgbt so i changed jisung's gender to a girl" and all her stories are written as "minsung" 
          
          make me confused more, girl. tell me what's inside your brain 

uploaded a new chapter after seeing the previous chapter has 18 reads but 0 votes/comments ^-^
          
          ngl my latest stories are flopping lmao

oh god.. this is why i really hate reading comments sOmeTimEs
          
          my story, my way. that's it. you want a rEaliStic story then find other stories to read. the genrE i wrote is already about a fucking HYBRid, you still want some realistic shits? yeah hybrid is extremely realistic in the first place. peace ^3^

also may i add that it always makes me sad whenever i update but none of the readers interact / vote the chapter. i only open the chapter whenever someone votes on it (because i don't want to contribute to the views)  and the number increases, but everyone is so silent and idk if i should continue writing it or not.
          
          but then i always tell myself that i write for myself, not for people :'/ i keep telling that to myself because i don't want to get unmotivated. it's a bit sad when i change my mindset because i really want to share my stories with other people but nowadays i care less, and day by day i don't feel the need to update because i could just keep it in my draft for me to read it. 

saw a makeup artist's reel doing fantasy makeup and my mind immediately wanted to write an au where a dark angel was forced to go to high school for an undesirable mission (for her) afusfsusgashsjdhs and the face claim would be the makeup artist herself she's so freaking PRETTYYYY
          
          creating a personality for a character is my favourite thing to do before i start writing :]