" I realized that I have always underestimated uncertainty until now. I have never really known the burden of not knowing what to do and what to think. My brain is collapsing. Not being able to treat the person who loves me as he deserves is such a burden that I can't handle it. I don't know how I got to this point. I feel guilty and regretful, but I also know that I shouldn't feel this way because people shouldn't be responsible for their feelings. I am like a person waiting to be saved and I only have two options. Run or stay. But both are actually harmful. "