The girl who is always happy and smiling even though she is screaming on the inside. The one who has to pretend to feel and to care. Has to work so much harder then everyone else just to look normal. Has to make it look like nothing is wrong and nothing can hurt her. Like she is superwoman. The one that wants to retreat to her prison of solitude and escape from the other world more then anything else. I'm that girl. I have to try to look normal and make it look effortless so no body can see how hard I try. So no body will see that I'm crying and screaming on the inside, begging to leave. So that no body will ever see that my smile doesn't reach my eyes. So they will never know that it's something that's been fabricated and doesn't come from the heart. I have to pretend to feel and understand. I've made a disguise that no one sees through, one that I never take off until there is no one around. The worst is that you can't tell me apart from everyone else. That fact alone hurts the most.