Aradhya Swarnkar

I can't stop thinking about you. 
          
          Why does it hurt so much when you don't even talk to me anymore?
          
          We used to be so close, and now there's distance I don't think we'll ever cross.
          
          I love you, even though you don't feel the way I do. You never did.
          
          I was always okay with that.
          
          Why does it hurt so much now?
          
          And seeing her there, smiling at you, with you smiling back. Trying and confessing to take the place I never had... shouldn't it be easier for me to let go?
          
          Then why can't I? Why do I miss you so much that my heart aches? Why can't I move on?
          
          
          "Why do I still need you even though I know I'll get hurt?"

so, like, not everything has been good lately.
          and i sometimes feel like how things used to be so great, but theyre just, bleugh.
          all i wanna say is, im so thankful for the 7 (lovable) idiots that have entered my life. i seriously, genuinely, don't know what i would have done without these people. they have become my fucking lifeline, and i cannot even imagine not thinking and smiling about them 24/7.
          not from a fan's perspective, just a normal, sometimes depressed (im not saying it seriously, dw) the work that these men do is, istg, astonishing? amazing? heartwarming? people who deserve all the goodness in this shitty world. people who saved millions of people with songs and their words? idek how they do that. i really respect them for it. all ik is that these 7 guys have become my lifeline, and that i can't live without them.

heyy my loveliesss
          okay, im really really reaaalllyyy sorrey. the book. ik i've not been updating a lot, and i apologize sincerely. firstly, i haven't really gotten a lot of time. and now, when i sat to write, i can't even think of anything. ik its weird, considering its about me, but i just cant put those emotions into words. 
          i promise, i'll update that as soon as i can, cuz i still have a lot of ideas for the oneshot book, and i need to get them out of my head. i feel like i shouldnt have started that, cuz its just taking up the little writing time i have. but i also really enjoy writing in that, it kinda makes me happy, yk? :( 
          lemme just get these ideas outta my head, otherwise i'll forget them and never be reminded again, and then i'll get back to that book. i'm really frustrated these days cuz of something going on in my life, and writing the oneshots really reduces stress for me. the book needs a bit thinking, and i really dont have the energy for that rn. so, for now, u can say the book is on hold, sort of.
          thank you sooo much for sticking with me. im sorrey again. i love yall :) <333

okay what the actual heck is wrong with me *crying emoji*
          so i have these three playlists on spotify for kpop (three only, ik). one for bts, one for bp, and one is just random kpop songs i like except for the two groups i listen to. 
          now see, i havent listened to my bp playlist in a long time, the most i listen to is the bts one. whenever im in a diff mood, im gonna go the kpop one, ONLY after APOLOGIZING to my bts playlist a lot of times *crying emoji x2* wth is wrong with me?? i feel like im cheating HELP *crying emoji x3, cuz wattpad is a bitch*

YALL I JUST REALIZED.
          the book is so unrelated to the name. the name is so heartbreaking or wtv. but the book is lighthearted. lmao. 
          do i change it? gimme ur opinions.

you read so fast...

SO I HAVE AN IDEA FOR NO REAS9M AT ALL :)
          so i was thinking of making a typa oneshot book, with incorrect quotes from pinterest and twitter. i just thought it would be interesting. lemme know what u think!

GURL THE COVER FOR LET ME LOVE YOU MADE ME FALL IN LOVE W CHIMMY ALL OVER AGAIN, IM MELTING RN 

HELLO MY LOVELY READERS! I'm sooooo sorry I haven't been able to update a few days. My exams are about to start and I have been studying without break. I open wattpad at night, that too cuz I'm addicted and cant help it :') Yall will get an update in the following few days, I hope, mostly by the 17th, or on that day. I'll try my best, love yall so muchhh ♡♡♡

also, CONG-FUCKING-RATS BRO! LITL ALMOST HAS A 1000 READS! U HV NO IDEA HOW DAMN PROUD OF U I AM! U DESERVE IT GURL! <333