I'm feeling so down lately. I always tend to give me best but it's never enough. I'm basically a slow learner. I always take one step at a time. Once I learn it, it's easy for me. But it's futile, in the eyes of people around me. I'm always worst in first, best in second. Is that really my fault?? I feel useless, I feel worthless, I feel helpless. Sometimes I just wanna run away from everything, from everyone, but I know I can't. I wanna cry, but I couldn't, no tears come out. I wanna talk with someone, anyone, but no one is ready to listen. Sometimes I couldn't help but to compare myself with others. If I be like them, will they accept me, will they not judge me?? Honestly idk. And idk what to do, I just feel so irritated, I just feel so numb. I'm so afraid that I'll lose myself. So please tell me, what should I do, what should I do to feel better. Because I'm just sick and tired, of everything.