Bella

Leave your friend and come meet me in the hotel room, girl. I'm not afraid of losing. If you want, come with your friends and meet me in the hotel room. 
          Am I a normal person who doesn't like a song like this? 

A friend asked me if I loved him. I told her yes, I loved him so much that I'd gone beyond being a sasaeng fan, but she doesn't know that I left someone for him. 

I was just thinking about something: I had a friend who was a bit of a pervert. His nickname was Gene. He was very perverted, playful, sociable, and had a great sense of humor. He was really nice, but I don't remember the rest of the group. I only remember this strange friend. Maybe it's because we were A formidable duo at one point, that's why I remember him. Anyway, I want to tell him that I miss him so much. I miss you, my partner. I miss you, you so-called Gene. 

Did you know that I loved you once in my previous life and a thousand times in my current life?

When your children ask you who this man was that you loved before their father, you could not tell them that the man you loved, who was going to be their father, was forgotten by their father. Was it fate or forgetfulness? But it was fate that did not bring together a lover and a stranger. 

عندما تدرك حينها ان شخصك المفضل 
          سيذهب 
          سوف يرحل للجيش 
          سيكبر 
          سيتزوج 
          سوف يكون شخصا لا تعرفيه 
          سترين اولاده 
          سترينه مع زوجته التي لطالما حلمتي بمكانها 
          سيرحل عن عالمك سوف تشعرين ان ليس لديك الحق به ليه لديك الحق بكل شيء لم تعدي تفكرين به هل هو متعب ام بخير هل هو يحتاج للراحة ام أنه يشعر بالراحة حقا ستتخلي عن جميع اهتماماتك لكنها حياته انتي معجبه فقط هو لديه حياه مثلك سوف يواعد سيتزوج سينجب اطفال وانتي كذلك ستتزوجين وتنجبين أطفالا تعلميهم علي حب فنانك تجعلين أطفالك يتعلقون به كما تعلقتي انتي به 

فكره انك تسمع اغنيه بتحبها حلوه بس فكره إن الاغنيه دي بجد بنخليك تحرق نفسك من البكاء دي غريبة شويه وفكره أنك كمان مشتاق لحد مش موجود فظيعه وخطيره بتمني اني افضل دايما بحمي نفسي في السحابه بتاعتي الي عايشه في نعيم الجهل عشان مفوقهاش عشان لو بجد نزلتها من سابع سما لي الأرض هبقي شخص تاني وانا مش عايزه ابقي كده مش عايزه ابقي الشخص ده عايزه ابقي شخصيتي الي عملتها العفويه والاجتماعية والي عايشه في نعيم الجهل مش عايزه ابقي الشخصية الي بتقعد بليل او كل يوم لوحدها تجلد ذاتها وتشتاق لحد راح بس معرفش هل اسيبها ولا أتعامل بشخصيتي إلي محدش يعرفها 
          Someone has been destroyed here. 

هل انت هاديء حقا لأنك فعلا هاديء او لان شخصيتك تم تغيريها تم استبدالها بشيء اخر هل انت هذا الاجتماعي ام الشخص الانطوائي الذي مكتئب من كل شيء لا اعرف ماذا بي لا اعرف ماذا يحدث معي لكني اريد البكاء اريد ان ابكي عندما تري ابشع الجرائم يتم تغيرك تلقائيا وهذا ما حدث معي أصبحت بدون سابق إنذار شخص انطوائي بسبب ماذا بسبب ابشع شيء رأيته The case of actor Yoo Yongtang has been upheld and closed and confirmed as a suicide, with the cause classified as excessive alcohol consumption. 

ثم يأتي لك وقنا يتم أخذ منك كل شيء كل شيء يتم تجريدك من كل شيء نقطه ضعفك هواياتك اصدقائك كل شيء يتم تجريدك منه عندما تأتي الدراسة انت مثل طائر بقفص لكن الطائر لديه حريه عنك انت عبد تم شرائه 
          Life is not roses but broken glass 

You know when there comes a time when you are completely destroyed from every side, nothing bothers you and no one bothers you, your life is comfortable and you are relaxed and people treat you well, but you are destroyed, wanting someone who is not there, needing someone, and you will not be able to find him that easily You won’t even be able to achieve your dream. You won’t be able to go to the country of your dreams with all this ease, even though the world is easy for you, and when you get involved in something, it ends because your face is pretty, but you are not able. You are a social person, but no one asks why you are social. Are you trying to fill up?Where did you actually go? Does this limit really make a difference to you? To the point that I feel like I want to go back to being a bad person again, a person who actually wears revealing clothes, or just stay away from everyone at once. Is it possible for me to do this?