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All the poems in my bio are mine i believe but who knows

My favorite game to play was little big planet,
          I had 1 ,2 and 3 i’m about to get the sequel even tho 3 wasn’t the best and made the lbp fandom separate i full heartily belive that this lbp will be better and will bring out my inner kid
          That stayed up for 3 days straight playing the game 

I called myself blue rose because i loved roses and the color blue so it fit.. same with blueberry because of blueberry sans..
          
          I never had a nick name growing up so i made my own, because i felt left out ,
          
          But now i call myself mars so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

As a negative thinking person, I think i’ve been slowly becoming more and more positive ..
          
          If i was able to hug my 10-14 self i would hug her so tight.. and say “It’s ok.. i’m here.. your doing great.. i’m proud of you.. you don’t need to die you have so much ahead of you” all the things my parents or the people i needed most didn’t say 
          
          i didn’t need “You have nothing to complain about! You have nothing in your life that’s bad that you wanna kill yourself”That’s not what i needed to hear.. because it made me feel worse and trying to do it ..
          
          sometime i still feel like dying but i just don’t tell my mom or anyone a matter a fact i just joke about it.. 

As a kid i stopped drawing thinking it want for me.. if my younger self could see us now with 7k she would cry and go to her sketch book and draw for hours on end 
          
          Younger me would be so proud of us and where we are

writing was a way to escape reality when i didn’t want to draw. Even tho my book was just of me and jacksepticeye (I feel bad for writing the book. Like.. didn’t it have a whole smut scene?) It was just me trying to find my way and show my ideas.. even tho my idea was NOT a good one

As a kid i was very to myself and never spoke to anyone , so as a coping mechanism i would draw and have pretend fantasies with my cousin sometimes as well,
          
          I even made a song with the lyrics “Please please please marry me let’s be together and we will try to make heaven free oh oh oh you reminded me so oh oh come be with me” 
          
          I only remember once every blue moon lol

You tubers where pretty much my parents, i didn’t really have money for games so i would watch people play it, but my brothers came along and now we have ever gaming console on planet earth

as a kid i looked up to jack,Mark and Felix so much that in my name BlueRose_SMP
          
          It stands for septic markiplier and pewdiepie

I was going to go into this account but i figured .. well there’s not a lot to delete.. and i don’t think me looking at the messages would help me.. so i think i’ll keep this account the same.. a small piece of younger me.. so i’ll keep this account wholesome.. i won’t project trama onto here maybe just shots of wholesome things i went through as a small child.. (or young teen)