I know it has been a long time, and I honestly would not be surprised if no one cared about this update at this point. But I guess I'm going to do it anyway.
I'm not going to even attempt to say I'm sorry for the silence. Not only because I know it won't fix the issue, but also because I'm not going to apologize for taking my time dealing with a couple things. I've recently gone back into therapy. My last time, I didn't have that great of an experience, so I was hesitant to go back. But then I realized that, that was nearly ten years ago. So I went. I knew I had recently started having anxiety and panic attacks, but I needed to get the actual name for it. Turns out the name for mine it PTSD, or Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder.
I say this to tell everyone this.
April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month. This is a big deal for me. It will be a year ago next month that I, myself, was sexually assaulted. No, I'm not looking for pity. I'm trying to spread the word that it can happen to anyone, anytime, anywhere. For me, it happened towards the end of my senior year of high school as I was unlocking my front door after walking home. After it happened, I felt like I had lost everything I was. Nothing excited me anymore, not music, not books, not writing.
But I'm slowly, very slowly, starting to reclaim a small part of myself. Hopefully I can start writing again sometime in the near future. But
I hope everyone can understand why it may not happen for a while.
My message box is open all the time whether I'm writing or not. Feel free to message me anytime. And know that if something happens to you, whether you're threatened not to tell or not, tell someone.
Until then, CamzFanz.
Ciao.
