For the years I've been, I prioritized my peace. The only thing I wanted and the only thing that I saw. But I was seeking growth, so I had to let go of the peace. Peace makes me feel everything and chaos makes me unstable.But is it really that, or I'm just running away from the things that I know I can handle better but turning into a nightmare cause I don't want pressure. For the longest time, I'm still lost. In the process of everything that I knew, I was aware but I feel helpless. Just because I don't want to be tired and promise myself I won't disappoint again big time . But what if I tried? So what if I failed, make a mistake? Do I need to camouflage? Do I need to shrink if I can shine? Ironic, when I call myself tala but I'm keeping my shine, my light. It's really me who was wrong in everything. If I never learn and drop a subject, it's all on me. Not because I'm not studying, but because I'm not having faith in what I do, and above all else. I'm not having faith in myself. The idea I have all in my head is that it's impossible but I know that it was all possible. So now, I have to get up. Pull myself together and whenever I feel I don't want it. Then goodbye to what I wanted. The laude.
