~|✨OLLIE✨|~

Hello all, I know you guys’ll probably hate this, but I’m gonna go on a mental break for a little bit. In all honesty, my self hatred these past few weeks have skyrocketed. I’ve also been losing a lot of sleep, just stressed out about everything that’s happening. Ive got orchestra auditions tomorrow, my play is two weeks away, and I’ve got an orchestra competition in around thirteen days. I’m also starting the process to get tested for autism on Monday, which Im scared about too. love you all so much and I’m so damn sorry to say this, but I feels it’s what’s best for me.
          ~ Lots of love and apologies, Ollie 

Gang I have fallen in love with who might be the sweetest guy I have ever met like bro when he asked me for a glue stick he called me M’lady like Istg ilhsm he is so damn sweet  he sits behind me in math and sometimes we’ll just talk about what happened in history (our second period) like today we had a debate and we talked about how stupid the other sides responses were (IE “so and so’s dad works in engineering and everyone gets paid equally”) and he’s just been so nice bro  this is lwky kind of a shock bc I’m nebularomantic (cannot distinguish romantic from platonic attraction easily due to neurodivergence) soooo yeah!! School is worth coming to now bc I’ve got a huzz (we aren’t dating but I lwky wish we were :p)

HEY GUYSSS!!!! So I’m FINALLY finished with a huge school project we’ve been working on since September (I hate it so much I’ve had to do it every year thank god I’m graduating this year lmao] and I’m honestly feeling a lot better about life, school, and my friends. I’m going try attempt to write a part of the next chapter tonight and try to get back into the flow. Thank you all for supporting and sticking with me! It means the world to me. Love you guys!! ~Ollie

Hey guys, super sorry I haven’t been posting. My motivation is down, I’m tired, and just really haven’t been creative lately. Sorry. Hope you all have a very merry Christmas though. stay safe and happy, love, Ollie

I love MSI but fucking hate J*mmy Urine sm

I love your pfp!

Beetlejuice and Adam in the OG play already have a lot of gay tension… it doesn’t help that the people who play Adam and 
          Beetlejuice in our production are gay and pansexual and dating eachother 

The word tragic means a lot to me
          I got bullied a lot as a teen
          I know to cut and I know how to bleed
          You'll never know how much it means to me
          My mommy said that God sees everything
          He knows I'm good and I just want to be
          Friends with these kids who are so mean to me
          Why can't you all be nice to me?
          Cute guy, nice face
          Wrong time, wrong place
          I knew in a matter of a minute
          His face was smashed
          His skin was burnt
          His shirt was torn in the dirt
          Cute guy, nice face
          Wrong time, wrong place
          I knew in a matter of a minute
          His face was smashed
          His skin was burnt
          His shirt was torn
          I know a ghost
          Good friend bad host
          Parents found out
          Cell phone left out
          Bullies get bullied
          Cycle repeating
          Bullies get bullied
          Cycle repeating
          So count
          So count me out
          So please don't leave
          I need you more than you need me
          You're beautiful and smart and kind
          While I am ugly, full of lies
          Like you and me were always safe
          I ran, I ran the fuck away
          Like I could be grown up some day
          God dammit God dammit I'm sorry
          God dammit God dammit God dammit I'm sorry
          God dammit God dammit God dammit I'm sorry
          God dammit God dammit God dammit I'm sorry
          Well I'm sorry
          Oh I'm sorry
          And I can't be with you anymore
          I can't live like this anymore
          I can't hold your heart anymore
          I need you to go on without me
          You're always drunk alone with your best friends
          I'm always stuck alone with my repressed thoughts
          With my repressed thoughts
          With my repressed thoughts
          With my repressed thoughts
          I thought I thought
          That evil was young
          The devil was old
          And winter was hot
          While summer was cold
          But I was so backwards in my thoughts
          And I was so backwards in my heart
          And I was so stuck in a fucking rut
          It took so much fucking guts
          To walk away
          To end that pain
          To leave my home
          To break those chains
          And I was so backwards in my thoughts
          And I was so backwards in my heart
          And I was so backwards in my thoughts
          And I was so backwards in my heart
          And I was so stuck in a fucking rut
          Peak song btw

I wonder if MCR knows their fans write fan fictions about them…

“I’m having wicked dreams, of leaving my city, oh Edmonton, I swear it’s calling me!”
          “We’ll fuck this city, I wanna move to Edmonton!”
          If this wasn’t clear I want to be in Edmonton so fucking bad.