Ellery 💖

had my first kiss last night and holy fuck yall it was good

turns out i wasn’t technically roofied at a frat house, it was actually ketamine! 

now wtf….its been so long. 
          
          so i’m not dead, just in college. that’s actually so insane to say. i’m studying sports media and ADPR to work in hockey, and im in a sorority. idk why i deleted wattpad, honestly i was just bored and never opened it. but i’m back for the nostalgia!

took a week away from here and came back to 111 notifs…

day four without liam and my brain hasn’t processed it still. seeing his dad and paul at the hotel broke me and cheryl’s post is heartbreaking. can’t imagine what his family is going through. can’t imagine what kate is going through 

honestly been putting this off but liam will always be in my heart. he's had so many problems and struggles the last few years but the little girl in me will mourn hm for years to come. he truly is our john lennon, our elvis. this 17 year old is the girl who heard about his death but the 8 year old girl who had to miss school when one direction broke up, she's the one that has truly felt this loss. anyone who tries to make fun of fans for mourning truly doesn't understand how deep this loss runs. four boys lost their brother, two parents lost their son, and a SEVEN YEAR OLD BOY LOST HIS DAD! anyone who makes fun of his death is truly heartless.

about to take my SAT and i’m actually shitting myself 

in my beckett sennecke era cause why not

and what if i do a jj mccarthy theme? then what?

idk if anyone cares for an update but she did message me back! we went through everything and as far as i can tell they have broken up (good for her) she was so sweet about everything and made sure i knew that she didn’t blame me but we def took it super seriously just with the fact that they’re 20 and im 17