Enfiskflygandesak
Happy pride month!!!!
Enfiskflygandesak
Enfiskflygandesak
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What do you even say to your teacher when he says that he is sorry for how he behaved.
He was like "how am I going to tell you this... I'm sorry for what I said before."
I thought he was going to say more things about how terrible I am. But instead he said that he's sorry for what he wrote to me.
I had a fucking panic attack last night about going to school and one before I went to school. Now I'm sitting here like everything is okay and my teacher feels bad for how he reacted. I don't know what is happening.
But I'm still not doing a good enough work though. I don't think I will ever be good enough for anyone.
Enfiskflygandesak
Tw: suicide, ED
Tomorrow I have to talk to the teacher who is so mad at me for not doing my work. I'm stupid and not reading his messages, but I'm so scared to do it. I have been struggling with my mental health since I was a kid but I never gotten better the help I've gotten is not even something I can call help becuase they just told me about how a good way was to end your life. Basically she told me to do it another way, good to know. Guess I will try to do it another way becuae obviously it didn't work the first 10 times.
Probably cancel the appointment I'm supposed to have with my therapist becuase she talks about her own problems and first said what I've been through has been very traumatic but then changes to say that it was "just a little though."
Then I have to go to prom on Wednesday and I want to cry over how I look and the fact that I wasn't allowed to wear what I want. Now I have to wear a dress and not a suit. I already know that one girl will comment on my body and what I eat, aperatöt that is entertaining, so there is chance I will have mental breakdown inside of a bathroom.
Enfiskflygandesak
@-sarahsmf I know I can fix my grades later on in life, but if I don't finish all of theese classes I can't study uni right after I finish school now. My parents want me to study right after, and I don't want to live close to them so if I want to move far away from this city, I need to finish school. Thanks for being here. You're amazing <33
l0vingsarah
@Enfiskflygandesak How they're treating you is not okay and you don't deserve it at all. My mom "failed" a lot of classes too but she studied after she got me, now she's pretty successful. I know everything's really hard right now but you're doing absolutely amazing. I'll always be here and I believe in you <33
Enfiskflygandesak
@-sarahsmf I kind of feel like I don't have that though. I'm not really allowed to study what I want because my family doesn't even believe in me anymore. I didn't get to study what I wanted in high school and now I've lost my biggest opportunity to go to an acting school after I finish with school. I want to work with it, but now I don't have the energy to do anything so I won't be able to study acting or music because of that. Thanks for being here. You're amazing and so so kind to everyone. Tha ks for being so kind and caring <33
Enfiskflygandesak
My teacher is sending me so many messages about how much of a disappointment I am. I mean, he's not wrong.
But please you're about to give me a panic attack and if I don't have one now I will definetly get one during practise becuase I'm so close to breaking down right now.
Enfiskflygandesak
@K1nkforlove I have a class with him where he teaches about leadership and let's just say that he thinks he is perfect but the things he says to students are the exact opposite of how he tells us to act as leaders. To do the things I want in the future I do need to have experience from it before, but I don't have that and I'm not going to fit in with the class if I have to have experience in that. Thanks for being here, I appreciate it. You can always message me too <33
K1nkforlove
You’re not an disappointment, you are not what HE says you are, non of this is true. First of all he’s a hypocrite little men using his authority as a TEACHER who’s job it is to support and lift up students rather he likes them or not. He uses his authority wrong and should not go further in his job, this shows that at home he’s under the grip of his wife and has nothing to say and uses this at school/college, believe me my teachers were like that too and I know he’s a desperate men.
Listen, in todays time you don’t need to be high educated to be successful it’s within your own person, not your degree nor your grades it is in you, you are the power of your own. You can achieve everything you dream of, everything you always wanted. You’re amazing the way you are don’t ever, ever let your teacher, friends or family tell you, you aren’t BECAUSE YOU ARE, YOU ARE AMAZING AND PERFECT!!! <3 If you need someone to talk I’m just one text away <3
Enfiskflygandesak
I will never be able to move from my family. My grades are the worst and I don't know anything about music or acting just becuase I wasn't allowed to go to a school woth it when I was younger. Now I can't do it at uni and I won't be able to make my dreams come true.
But of course my parents are denying the fact that they never believe in me and stoped me from going to the school I wanted to go to. I feel like I'm going crazy becuase I know what they said but they are denying it and now I don't know what is true or not.
I just want to leave this school and get done with my work, but I have no energy to do so. I'm the school's and my family's biggest disappointment.
VennysAssistant
@Enfiskflygandesak and sweetheart, you don’t need a degree to do what you like, build yourself up and prove them all wrong
Enfiskflygandesak
Somebody save me!!
I just filmed my audition for acting school, and now I have to wait for a while before I get to know if I will even go to that acting school.
I'm so nervous, and I'm sure that I won't get any sleep until I get my results.
1-800-HEEHEE
@Enfiskflygandesak That's kind of like me my mother doesn't really believe I can do it. So when I get the chance, I'm going to take it! And you got this!
Enfiskflygandesak
I'm so tired right now.
I've been working since 9.30 yesterday and I just finished work.
It was fun, but I'm so anxious about it too
Enfiskflygandesak
@Enfiskflygandesak life is just hard after work and everything became too much during dunne, lunch and breakfast. Then I was tired, stressed and anxious so when I had to talk to my family everything became even more overwhelming so I don't know what to do. I'm just so tired of everything right now
K1nkforlove
Oh hun its ok to feel like this. Sometimes social interactions are fun at work but at the same time it can tire you and in proud of you for working! Go make something small to eat maybe with a tea, do breathing techniques maybe box breathing? Than get some rest you deserve it! I’m here for you✨ <3
Enfiskflygandesak
I just downloaded wattpad again and I'm kind of back again on this app. I will be on the app again to read and talk to people, but at the moment I don't know about posting things.
I thought for once that I would be able to relax and focusing on my mental health. But life happens and I'm back again in the same bad thoughts and I'm not doing well.
I will try to write as a way of keeping myself distracted from what is going on right now and hoping to get my thoughts on other things, but I can't promise that I will post anything.
Enfiskflygandesak
@sarahssweetheart I've missed being able to talk to you so so much. You're litteraly the sweetest person ever. You're so nice to me and to everyone. Being able to talk to you is amazing. You're such a sweetheart. Thanks for always being here for me darling. Sending you hugs <3
sarahssweetheart
@Enfiskflygandesak hello sweetheart, i've missed you <3 take your time, of course. if you ever need to talk, you have me! you are so so strong, and such a lovely person. you deserve only the best and to be happy, so anything i can do, just say! take care beautiful. <3
Enfiskflygandesak
@K1nkforlove Thank you darling, it means alot to me. Reading this makes me cry, you're so sweet. I'm sending you a huge hug back. If you have any requests, it would be amazing if you could write them. I kind of need some motivation and inspiration to write again. Message me if you want <33
sarahssweetheart
His sweetheart! my dms are so bad im so sorry. I just wanted to try and brighten your day by letting you know that you are one of the sweetest souls on this app and you make me so happy to have you liking my work. I am here for you as a friend and I always will be!! you deserve only good things and I will always help you when needed. If you ever need to talk I have got you! <3 You are a beautiful human, and I hope you have a lovely rest of your day!
Enfiskflygandesak
@sarahssweetheart OMG you're so kind sweetheart. I'm always here for you too and thank you for always being here for me. I hope you'll have a good day today and I'm sending lots of hugs to you <33 you're just one of kindest and sweetest person I've met here on this app.
Enfiskflygandesak
Hi!
I will be leaving this app for a while. I will probably be back ones school is much more calm and when I don't have 9 assignments a week.
My mental health is really bad and I'm going back to the bad habits I used to have, the habits I've been working on but are now a total waste of work becuase I feel like I relapsed with everything.
School, two jobs, practise and starting uni soon is not helping me, altough I'm really excited to start uni. My coach doesn't believe in me and basically told me that I'm not good enough and that I do t have any chance at all os I can basically forget it. Now I have to work even harder to be better and have a better part in the team.
I'm sorry everything is taking so long with all the requests and how long time ot takes for me to actually write and post something here.
I'm not going to be here more for a while, probably back in April when school is a bit better and can work on my health. It's just been a head time with family to and for them to not fully accept me for who I am and what I want to do in life, plus loosing a loved one recently and getting to know it so late from my family and they didn't even seem to care about how I felt a out this and just went on to talk about something else.
I'm really sorry its taking so long and I hope you're doing okay <33
1-800-HEEHEE
@Enfiskflygandesak anytime sweetheart! I’m always here for you no matter your on break or what tbh