🖤Toby🖤

You're beginning to drag the ones you love down
          Will this phase ever end?
          A thousand arms to hold you
          But you won't reach for any hands

my gf in a whole other country on another continent & sent me my fav snacks & flowers :,) 

i’m so sad i’m not at my city pride festival this year bc of this stupid sick fuckin body :,( 

body immediately rejects food & then has the audacity to have low blood sugar. I TRIED, GIRL. IM TRYING. 

god bless orally dissolving nausea medication. i would’ve been hospitalized so many times by now without it :,) 

goddd i am so tired of feeling sick. fuck doctors. 

once again feel a relapse coming i’m just too tired to fight. idk how else to cope with doctors failing me while my body is literally falling apart. 

imagine holding it together for 2 weeks in the worst month for your mental health bc of your birthday & then everybody forgets it 

not even June yet & it’s starting already. whole body feels like my weight has doubled. feel it in my bones 

watching ed movies & documentaries on youtube for the comfort i never got>>