🖤Toby🖤

should just end my shit fr i cannot deal with this

maybe someday i’ll be able to quit for good but gd if it doesn’t make me feel so much better still 

1 year & 2 months. 449 days. gone. 

genuinely fear the stress & heartache of this process is going to make my heart stop 

that suffocating feeling is back. need to be out of my skin. or disappear. just don’t wanna deal with it. 

i love her more than anything it’s actually killing me to see her suffering so much 

if anybody could pray or just send healing vibes for my mom please i would be so grateful. she’s so sick again & ik she’s so tired of it but she’s fighting still

being someone’s only caregiver while also having a sick body is truly hell 

You're beginning to drag the ones you love down
          Will this phase ever end?
          A thousand arms to hold you
          But you won't reach for any hands

my gf in a whole other country on another continent & sent me my fav snacks & flowers :,)