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oh and yeah i hope at least the movie was longer and initially it was dunno why raimi cut it so much

@God-Of-Closets <33
            
            No you're completely right, i think the expectations were too high and yeah the good thing is they release things for everyone, someone might like it someone might not :3

@amidead-yes XD no worries. Also you have a free pass to rant at me anytime you want
            
            I agree about it being anticlimactic too, tho! They made Wanda into the ULTIMATE villain, and then they just ended all of that in one movie? Anyways I did like it, could have been better but that's just me and there are all kinds of marvel fans it's not like they're gonna be able to make everyone 100% happy when there are so many expectations

@-wintxrwidow yeah I haven't been on. Honestly I'm not really motivated to write anymore I just come on every month or two to check in with people now

im good too!! i got worried coz i didnt see you active in a long while

@-wintxrwidow hey I'm doing okay :) it's been very long lol hru

@God-Of-Closets that's amazing, I'm so glad you talked to her! You're really strong, you know that right? It's gonna be great for you trust me. Trust yourself and the doctor and let them help you, take your time. Don't apologise, c'mon, this is great news. You and your family is really strong and you can do this. 
            
            Yeah, i hope so too. I know, it is comforting. Hope we all can heal and move on from them :)

@amidead-yes it's so hard to hear all you went through... that sounds just horrible.. but I've got a big update on myself- I talked to my mom today. About what I told you here and more. It wasn't a conversation I wanted to have but my mom just said she could tell I was struggling and I needed to talk to her. And now I'm glad I spoke with her, she's gonna take me to talk to our doctor and see if I can get some help because I've really had a hard time through a lot maybe even most of of my life. It's very intimidating and my anxiety is killing me rn but I'm trying to hope I'll get through this and come back better. Also my family has a history if mental illness so... I don't even know. Sorry I'm just going on and on I honestly don't know what to say
            
            And I hope one day you'll be able to keep those people who hurt you out of your mind completely, you don't deserve to continue suffering.
            And thanks so much for listening to me and being supportive of ne, and it's a little comforting to know we have had similar experiences even if they were really shitty experiences.

It took me so long, I've just been my worst self for two years, at first I was pretty much incapable of doing anything and pandemic definitely made it worse. I'd just stay locked up in my room, cry the whole day or keep thinking and try to bargain with those people everytime. It sucked how little they cared even though we were best of friends. It's only been like 2-3 months since I've gained some self restraint and that I'm trying to be back to my normal self, trying to do things I used to love doing, focus on healthier friendships and people who are actually good. I'm still not over it all unfortunately, I slip into that rabbit hole more often than not but there has been improvement for sure. It's just that it took me a lot of time to accept and leave all that behind so I don't expect you to do it all at once but gradually, yes. It's worth it because you deserve it. I do have better people but it's only because I let them in and it wasn't done overnight either. I really hope you're able to understand how important that is for you too. 
            
            I know this has been really long but I need you to understand you're not alone, at least not when you're here. Please talk, it helps a lot, if not to me than to anyone you think would understand, help or just listen,m because sometimes that's all you want. Just don't deal with it all alone. It doesn't get better that way.
            
            I'm glad you think so, I didn't want to seem like I'm prying too much. 

@God-Of-Closets ikr and no one would even think it's a big deal like it was so normal ☠️

@amidead-yes ok lol whattt- she'd legit bring a chunk of ice to school? Dude that alone is hilarious even if it weren't for putting an ice cube down that guys shirt XD like what the hell that's so random

@God-Of-Closets SOMETIMES SHE WOULD JUST FILL HER BOTTLE AND KEEP IT IN FREEZER AT NIGHT SO THE WATER WOULD BE THIS HUGE BLOCK OF ICE IN THE MORNING I MEAN-

@God-Of-Closets it's alright, read when you wanna :3
            
            LMAO exactly. It's part of my personality now i get so anxious and insecure without it. Yes, hope hope hope.
            
            Yeah I'm surviving :')
            That means a lot you don't know <3

@amidead-yes lol there's no way I've read jack shit for like 2 months O_O
            
            Ahh, well yes we all do. It's kind of freaky how things are starting to feel normal like this, like when you forget your mask and just walk in a store without one to ask if they have one for you to use that shit be feelin awkward af just standin there for 5.2 seconds without the mask lmao
            Eventually it'll get better tho, one day. Just gotta have hope ig
            
            You'll do fine on exams also, you've been doing alright so far, right? So dw ik that it will be fine. I have every confidence in you <3

I've been good, I've been good, I've been so nostalgic for the past few days though, i miss pre pandemic a lot lol who doesn't i mean-
            Anyways I've got exams AGAIN from 2nd March
            So life's the same boring shithole to sum up ☠️

Will listen

@God-Of-Closets okay ️

Kings of Leon is so cool tho actually, so that's legit so sad. Listen to them please

@God-Of-Closets LMAOOOOO PLSSS

@God-Of-Closets XD

@amidead-yes YES

@God-Of-Closets keep that in your bio lmfaoooo