Kris

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          h e l p m e

I need to vent. 
          
          
          I'm scared.
          I feel like I haven't talk to my bf for a bit and I am just breaking down inside. I cried yesterday because I was upset that he didn't answer my messages. I waited 3 hours, then gave up and cried. My heart still hurts.
          I get that he was busy, and I feel selfish thinking that he should've responded...
          But it still hurts.
          And the few times that I get to get on, he isn't on aymore.
          It hurts.
          I miss him.
          And, 
          I'm scared that it won't last forever.
          I'm scared one of us is going to get tired of the other.
          I'm terrified that he might one day leave, or the other way around, that I might one day break his heart...
          
          I can't imagine a world without him.
          He's literally the only person I know irl that I talk to besides family.
          I would have no one to talk to.
          No one to love.
          
          My heart hurts even more just thinking about it. And it doesn't help that I mostly listen to depressing breakup songs... Those songs make it feel like it's inevitable that we're going to break up... 
          I mean.. this is my first relationship- I might be overthinking it, but this is stressing the shit out of me....
          
          Alright, that's kinda it for now.

@Jacko-ChiChi  I don't think I'll be able to after dinner- but alright. ;-;

@Jacko-ChiChi without me? >:O
          How dare you ;C
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I'm kidding love, I hope it was good uvu 
          I am here now and whenever you are free you can send a link, I'm just doodling :D
          
          
          -<3

@Jacko-ChiChi Whenever you get back u-u

@Jacko-ChiChi ♥️♥️

@Jacko-ChiChi  Mk! We can play this afternoon after my choir thing if you want to ^~^

@Jacko-ChiChi I thought your Minecraft was working so I was trying to get to you on there since my phone is still being a bitch---
          And then there is the fact that my parents have that fucking schedule, and they won't let me get my chromebook..... T_T 
          
          I can't wait to see you tomorrow! If you're seeing this around when I sent it, you can call me cause I currently do have my phone, but I can't call you otherwise it won't work, and my texts clearly aren't working either, I sent you multiple, and I don't think they went through :C

@Jacko-ChiChi Oh oof- mk T-T

How do you ask your parents for a therapist without explaining to them why..? 
          I need to talk to someone, but I don't want to explain it to my parents, partly because I don't want them to worry, partly because they are a part of my uhm how do I put this... feelings(?) 
          I would like to discreetly ask them for a therapist that I could visit-in-person- please help me ;-;