JustOneHellOfALoser

Ok, so, I don't know if any of you really care all that much but I need to talk to someone (that doesn't already know) about life. Recently my depression has hit harder, stress mixed in with bipolar disorder just egging it on. Nothing I do interests me anymore and my goals don't seem important so much as hoops to jump through to make sure I keep going. If I stop jumping through these hoops, I'll stop going, and I won't get up again. I feel pathetic because I know I'm going to live with bipolar disorder for the rest of my life, and therefore depression. Every day I'm either numb or I just lose interest in everything. I've lost all of my passions, my love for reading, the attention span and love for watching movies/TV shows, my motivation for any type of writing (unless it's depressing stuff, but I try to stay away from that considering it's probably not good for me), my patience or love for creating art, video games I love no longer hold my interest, and even my favorite YouTubers no longer seem as funny...and this is what the rest of my life will be like. Because I'm type 2 bipolar and have been dealing with bipolar depression ever since I was twelve...I'm now seventeen. I have a therapist I go to and medicine I take, but my medicine is never enough...it never keeps me happy and I don't know what to do because I'm desperately holding on to the few things I have left that I enjoy but it's slipping out of my grasp and I'm afraid that this is going to be the rest of my life. I feel pathetic because these people I know are so strong while their lives are so difficult but here I am, my world falling apart why they go through something so much worse than me while I sit here. Sorry for the depressing post, I just needed to express my thoughts somewhere and this is the only social media I have and actively use. This is also why I quit writing and updating stories.

SeraphicSerialKiller

@JustOneHellOfALoser you never need to apologise for being who you are. Even if that person has depression and bipolar disorder, you should never need to apologise. I can't say that I know exactly what you're going through, but I can understand the importance of talking about it. I myself have severe social anxiety and depression as well, so I know at least some of what you're feeling.
          	  If you feel like your goals are just hoops to jump through, and that's all that's keeping you going, maybe take a step back for a little while. It doesn't even have to be for very long. A couple of hours, outside taking a walk, or playing with a pet, hell even just sitting in a peaceful place like a park can help. Trust me. It lets you see that things aren't as bad as they seem in your head. 
          	  And if that doesn't work, try surrounding yourself with your loved ones, when you're not feeling so good. 
          	  No one on here really minds if you stop updating stories, because your mental health and state if kind are more important than any story. We love you, and accept you. You'll always have support, no matter what you're going through, so don't give up. You're an amazing and beautiful person.
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JustOneHellOfALoser

Ok, so, I don't know if any of you really care all that much but I need to talk to someone (that doesn't already know) about life. Recently my depression has hit harder, stress mixed in with bipolar disorder just egging it on. Nothing I do interests me anymore and my goals don't seem important so much as hoops to jump through to make sure I keep going. If I stop jumping through these hoops, I'll stop going, and I won't get up again. I feel pathetic because I know I'm going to live with bipolar disorder for the rest of my life, and therefore depression. Every day I'm either numb or I just lose interest in everything. I've lost all of my passions, my love for reading, the attention span and love for watching movies/TV shows, my motivation for any type of writing (unless it's depressing stuff, but I try to stay away from that considering it's probably not good for me), my patience or love for creating art, video games I love no longer hold my interest, and even my favorite YouTubers no longer seem as funny...and this is what the rest of my life will be like. Because I'm type 2 bipolar and have been dealing with bipolar depression ever since I was twelve...I'm now seventeen. I have a therapist I go to and medicine I take, but my medicine is never enough...it never keeps me happy and I don't know what to do because I'm desperately holding on to the few things I have left that I enjoy but it's slipping out of my grasp and I'm afraid that this is going to be the rest of my life. I feel pathetic because these people I know are so strong while their lives are so difficult but here I am, my world falling apart why they go through something so much worse than me while I sit here. Sorry for the depressing post, I just needed to express my thoughts somewhere and this is the only social media I have and actively use. This is also why I quit writing and updating stories.

SeraphicSerialKiller

@JustOneHellOfALoser you never need to apologise for being who you are. Even if that person has depression and bipolar disorder, you should never need to apologise. I can't say that I know exactly what you're going through, but I can understand the importance of talking about it. I myself have severe social anxiety and depression as well, so I know at least some of what you're feeling.
            If you feel like your goals are just hoops to jump through, and that's all that's keeping you going, maybe take a step back for a little while. It doesn't even have to be for very long. A couple of hours, outside taking a walk, or playing with a pet, hell even just sitting in a peaceful place like a park can help. Trust me. It lets you see that things aren't as bad as they seem in your head. 
            And if that doesn't work, try surrounding yourself with your loved ones, when you're not feeling so good. 
            No one on here really minds if you stop updating stories, because your mental health and state if kind are more important than any story. We love you, and accept you. You'll always have support, no matter what you're going through, so don't give up. You're an amazing and beautiful person.
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HannahTacoLady

Oh my goodness. I read your entire bio and I absolutely love you. You are in all of my fandoms!!! Except for a few. And we like a lot of the same music! You are my new favorite account on Wattpad. All hail the Queen. *bows*

JustOneHellOfALoser

@HannahTacoLady I'm glad you and I have something in common! It's always nice to get a new friend :)
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TheNightPhantom

*Grell voice* Oh BASSY! Thank you for reading my magnificent tale of looove! Your comments were appreciated so much. 
          
          (*whispers* I don't know how he got here or why he thinks its his story, I swear.)

JustOneHellOfALoser

@TheNightPhantom *Sebastian voice* Grell, go away! And I much appreciated being the kitty cat!
            
            (*whispers* I have no idea either but I'm happy is Sebastian's here...as long as he doesn't MURDER ME *glares as Sebby*)
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