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Ya know for the longest time I didn't wanna do anything. I was just tried of every day life. Like I couldn't leave my room I didn't Wanna clean I didn't wanna do anything I felt like a void empty. Hell I even have my fair suicidal thoughts. Here and there. But I just kept thinking. What ifs, what woulds ya know. The thought of leaving behind someone that one person that I nee it would ruined them I didn't want to see them sad what am trying to say is everyone has at least once in there lifetime thought " oh hey I want to die today"
Or
" I don't want to life, no one gives a shit about me they all hate me am worthless blah blah blah " ya know. Everyone has bad days.
Till I found something I like. It made me wanna stayed to learn. The curiously of dog grooming, the curiously of what would happen next in my books, what would I upload today, what would I do today, what type of story should I come up with, what time of story will people like? What music should I write today what should I sing today, what should I listen today, is the weather nice? Is it cloudy, is it raining, is it burning my fucking skin off, is it freezing, is it snowing outside?
Are ya okay today.
Will you be okay tomorrow,
How about the next day, the next week, the next month, how are you? You know I love ya.
Complete strangers but I love ya.
Ya guys amazing,
Fantastic,
Stunning,
Beautiful,
Cute,
Ya everything in my eyes.
Ya can be anything, ya want to be. Don't let anyone bash ya down. Don't let any assholes dickshead and fucktards tell ya, ya can't do what ya want to do. If I found ya work, ya music fantastic, then ya are..
Also if only one person really likes my work, my stories, that all that matters in my eyes.
Love ya peeps
This rant is now over
Bye bye I will upload later.