I was scrolling through a journal which I filled couple of years back and was amazed to see how childish I must've been. It peculiarly contained all the sissy, girlish stuff (mostly me whining over lil things) which completely contradict the present me. After analyzing, I just realized that those things might still tend to hurt me but the amount of pain they might cause is now just reduced to a noticeable degree (like a helix piercing I got few days back hurts but noone near the lil one on the lobe I got years back lol) Hence the transformation you go through is always weird yet it has it's own charm.