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Rare aesthetic: Getting an anxiety attack the night before your birthday, somehow hiding it coz can't tell anyone, and then h*rming yourself coz you somehow need it to feel something? Or maybe you deserve it. Idk. Just felt like it.
(P. S. Today's my birthday. I am okay :) Please don't report me.)
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@Lovextales No sorry required Everyone needs help. It is the most human thing. Anytime you need, talk. We are all here.
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I am so so sorry if you read it. Please ignore it. I am so sorry for wasting your time. Don't feel sorry for me. I will learn to be okay. I won't kms. Don't worry. Ignore this, please. I just needed to talk, and so i did. Don't pay much heed to this. Ignore it. Again i am sorry if you do read it. I promise i am not that obnoxious irl. But even if i am? I don't know. I don't care anymore. I am okay. I have good friends. I have good family. I just like wallowing in self pity. Ignore this. Ignore everything. I am okay. I am fine. I have to be. Sorry if I am too much. Or if I bothered you
Thanks for asking. It meant a lot. :)
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It's like my chest is getting smaller yk? I can't breathe. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to calm myself down. I don't wanna go through that again. Please. Please. I might not be able to describe it, but that was the worst half an hour of my life everything hurt so much. I don't want that again, please. But I don't know how to stop myself. I don't know how to stop those voices in my head. It's too much. I am so scared of my exam tomorrow. What if everything goes badly? What if I don't do well? What if all I have worked for, goes in vain? I already feel so weak, I am so weak. People go through worse than me with a smile on their faces and I am already so tired. I already wanna give up. But fine. I am weak. I am the weakest person in the world. But I don't think that I will be able to live if tomorrow exam doesn't go well. And i don't wanna be that weak. I wanna be stronger. I wanna make everything okay but I don't know how to. I don't know how to feel worthy of everything. I don't know how to shut up the voice in my head that i didn't deserve RDC. That i disappointed everyone there. I feel like such a failure. I just wanna breathe. I just wanna calm down. I don't wanna hurt myself again. It hurts. But gosh it feels good. Like i am able to feel something. To do something i actually deserve. And i don't wanna think that. I wanna stop. I wanna stop :(
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