vclueless1
I do not know if you'll see this message, but it's 'Tai'. I don't really go by that name anymore. I first, would like to explain why I'm messaging you randomly in the first place. To put it straight, I nearly died about 2 weeks ago. That isn't any of my old dumb exaggerations. I got diagnosed with type 1 diabetes :p. Had a hypo. That's not the focus though.
I thought. I've been doing alot of that. It made me think about what I regret. And one of the main things is you. I realised genuinely that I used my mental health as a scapegoat to basically treat you like genuine dirt. There is no excusing *anything* that I did. The diagnosis has helped me in a weird way, with being a better person. I am far from who I was a few years ago.
I came to the epiphany that, I hurt you more than anyone could. I think I've learnt to not be a victim. Yes I've had a bad life but, sitting around and crying about it isn't going to do anything. I am not that person. I was a child. I live alone now and I'm at a pretty good university. I feel like after all this time, I'm finally mature enough to address something I am grossly ashamed of.
If there's anyone I want in this world to be okay, it's you. That comes from a place of adoration. Because you did your best for me during a dark dark time in my life. And I took it for granted.
I would like to explain myself further, but it is on your word. I hope by some miracle you may read this. It's unlikely. I cannot leave this world without knowing that you know I have repented.
You do not at all have to respond to me. I just want you to know about this. If that is the case, this is the last you shall hear from me. God bless.
LukuroZaw
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@vclueless1 im just gonna keep this here as a monument to your bullshit. You don't even know how to apologise, saying you regret *me* and not the crap you pulled. You faked your own suicide, messaged me as your made-up fling, made me believe that Leo was real when, in fact, Leo was just named after my own character because you're oh-so original. You made me question every single response I gave you. You fed into my belief that I'll never be good enough for anything. But guess what, Thomas? Thank you. Thank you for finally making me feel good about not being a piece of shit like you who groomed a child, called me the manipulative one (which you were half-right), and then decided to also say that you were in a mental ward being diagnosed with MPD. Newsflash: I highly doubt Mental Wards let you stream to twitch while on call with your school friends, or was that just a giant lie too? "I cannot leave this world without knowing that you know I have repented" sums up your entire character. I don't give a flying shit if you think you've repented or found the Christian god or whatever phase you're on. And yeah, I waited over a year to finally say this shit. Because I didn't trust myself, when in reality, *you* shouldn't trust *me*. And to think I thought you loved me? You just loved the idea of having someone bend to your every whim. Telling me you didnt care about my assault because you just wanted to fantasise about me being a part of your kink. To think I played along? To think that I actually felt bad that you "got stabbed?" To think that I cried, and prayed to my watcher over your ass? It's all rather amusing. So enjoy your life, Thomas. And thank you for helping ruin mine. BTW, congrats on your diabetes diagnosis. Guess what I have? 93% chance of cancer within the next 30 years of my life. So screw you, and go live a life that you deserve.