hahahhahahha I'm sobbing so hard rn. I've been trying to update as much as possible, yet I take it all down to rewrite it. People are commenting for updates, it just makes me feel worse. I'm so grateful for all of you, but I can't right now. I'm on my last week of school, and my whole family's pushing last minute grades. Not to mention, there's a crap ton of tests. And on top of that, I've been really stressed out recently, and my anxiety been top teir. I can't write when I'm like that, it reflects. There about to be some major family drama, and I can't do anything about it. Also, my friends think it's cute and quirky to hate me for long periods of time with zero reason. They're waiting for me to leave or mess up to finally have something against me. Not to mention, they think they're so cool. Going out on dates when were only 13. idk, I feel awful for not updating. I know how annoying it is, you're here for my book not my life story. This really is my only source of happiness, and I'm trying my best. Just know I love you all so much