I have a notebook/journal where I just write random things, whatever I feel, my thoughts, quotes, lists etc. Maybe, if you don't already, you should do it too because it can aid even just a little whenever you feel troubled inshaallah
Take time to reflect on what you learn then implement it because knowledge without action is like a tree without fruit and it will be something against you on judgement day if you truly believe
Allah will judge us with every deed we do, good or bad
Bring yourself to account before you are brought to account
Weigh your deeds before your deeds are weighed
The Prophet used to ask Allah for forgiveness up to 70 times a day and he was the best of mankind
How about us today?