I look back at the memories I've created but I see how happy I once was and instead I now see how sad and I am an emotional wreck rather than the happy person I was before
It's okay not to be okay but it hurts worse when your not okay and the people your closest to ask and you say I'm fine. I lie to them I lie to myself I'm not okay. I know that but nobody else will. I can't give my burdens to someone else. They will find out when they notice I'm no longer alive when I'm gone when I finally find the courage. I haven't yet I'm just a sad sack. I but I will I'm sure of it. You know what hurts worse when I pray at night I pray for my family to be ok and if God ever needs to take one of my family members off this planet I pray and hope it's me because I'm ready when ever he is....