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hey, guys.
everyone is probably surprised that i've only come back now :)) well, makes sense. this isn't kismet. this is her irl friend, ace.
kismet, being the precious forgetful little shit she is, forgot her password and forgot to come back here overall. man, all these comments are making me tear up. now, you're probably wondering who the fuck am i, and why the fuck do i have her account (especially her “spanish bestie” here...whoever you are — kismet fucking loves you lol) so yeah. i'm just gonna tell you all why, and i advice you to please keep reading whatever you come across. she loves you all.
kismet, my girl, took her life February 13th of this year. i still haven't moved on, i still don't know how to react and just typing that shit out to all of you, her OG friends, makes me fucked up inside. she committed in her bedroom, with her being in there for nearly a week and not even her parents checked on her. we communicate only thru text after school, so i got really worried when she wasn't going and wasn't replying and shit. i'm so sorry, i know it probably kind of is my fault but i never even expected it. we've been close friends for not even more than six months and i know how her mind is but she just really fucking hid most of it. idk. i don't know what i'm doing anymore, i wanted to just also be gone when i found out about what happened but she wouldn't be happy about that. i know it. i read it on her letter. she entrusted me w her journals and stuff, and thats how i found her password here. i also found her draft letters to you all, so if you'd love to read those just lmk. she's talked about you guys to me for so long, claiming that she hated herself for being “stupid” and that she never even got to properly say goodbye to you all, even if she never intended to leave.
i wanted to do something for her, since she's my bestest friend and i know how much she hates hurting people. pls forgive our kismet if she ever did.
kismet, i love you dude. miss you.
