Mentally Unstable 😜

Ima be completely honest I need help 
          
          I’m so close to killing my self but I don’t do it cuz ima fucking pussy and I’m scared that I’ll die in pain
          
          I need help but I can’t ask or reach out to anyone 
          School is out of session so I can’t ask for help from a guidance counselor and I don’t go back for an entire month 
          
          I just can’t take it anymore 
          I really just need someone to be there for me and not yell at me for every little mistake I make 
          And I get that I can be a dick at times and I fault myself for that. But I don’t get why I’m like this. I wish that I could change but I can’t no matter how hard I try I just can’t

Soooo I might be changing schools for the sake of my mental health 
          
          But like quick rant
          
          I have no one to talk to at my school rlly we all have our own social clicks and I don’t fit in any of them
          Like yeah I have ppl who I can sit and talk with at school but at he end of the day I don’t really have someone who I can get home and call YKWIM?
          And likes it so frustrating because like they have that they can go home and talk to each other but I can’t. And tbh that’s destroying my mental health (besides from the list of issues I have rn)
          But I don’t even know how to address my mom on that cuz she told me that if I wanted too I could switch schools.
          But then again I just got accepted into track and like the school around my house don’t have the programs my current school has
          And it’s like if I leave I’m leaving my hard work and progress behind
          
          If anyone see this (I doubt they will) can you give me your insight on this please 
          
          
          Anyways back to being delusional and creating fake scenarios in my head 

Update all my so called friends are assholes
          And I low-key feel like maybe racist...

lowkey wanna cry my brother(cracker lookin mf) really just said he got black friends so he can hate on me (a lightskined person) during BHM 
          
          
          This is a joke i taught him better 

its official i have a small crush on my s.s teacher:]... 
          
          i say smoll cuz i have a massive crush in my straight friend :'/

OMG I HAVE ISSUES
          LIKE MAJOR ONES
          IM CRUSHING IN MY S.S TEACHER 
          SOMONE SEND HELP
          FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

Im gonna always one thing and one thing only fuck you to all the people who told me that The Promised Neverland
          
          IS FUCKING HAPPY
          
          It is currently 2:36 am as I writing this crying me eyes out because I just finished season one and the song had me fucking crying even worse 
          
          
          I just wanna say I hate you @JimIsinYourBasement  and I think that I deserve an apology 

Do you know who’s birthday it is today?!?
          
          
          Hizashi Yamada! Happy birthday bitch you may be loud but we love you! So does Aizawa if you know what I mean…

I’m scrolling through Pinterest and I see this…
          
          https://pin.it/6dw5cTJ
          
          We’re my libras at?

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