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Does anyone else have summer hit them in the face? Like, sure, I look forward to summer, and I don’t like the stress of school, but at some point in the beginning of summer I don’t want to do anything but sleep. Normally for me I have like, a week or two till I feel like this but it’s barely been two days and I don’t want to do anything but lay in bed. Sorry if ik you irl and you keep getting dry answers from texts or wtv. I promise nothing you’re saying is boring and you’re not annoying me, I just can’t bring myself to answer rn. As much as I want to, even socializing a little bit feels like too much.

lol I told my parents a few years ago that I wanted to join all of the sports/extra activities that my older brothers are really good at when I’m in high school and my parents just said something along the lines of “you don’t have to follow his path! Find your own things that you enjoy :)” which I have a hard enough time doing anyway. All of my brothers teachers are constantly saying that they can’t wait to have me “in the band/on the team” bc of course I’m going to be as good at playing the clarinet as my brother is at playing his tuba and trombone and trumpet and oh look someone gave him a fucking flute. The second I started expressing interest in MY own thing that I ENJOY my mom starts to pressure me into swim and water polo and orchestra and marching band and jazz band ALL THE BANDS! I don’t even enjoy band that much. If you wanted me to do my own things then let me do theater and choir and maybe swim/water polo, I said I would think about it. Me and my parents were happy bc for once I don’t have a summer that’s too busy, but now that they’re opening a swim team two minutes away from my house my mom is basically begging me to join that so that I can go spend three hours there EVERY DAY. I’m just a little upset

You have two cross over reading lists…why may I ask?

…I didn’t notice there was an announce to followers button… I’m a little slow, but at least now I don’t feel like I’m talking to myself even if I kind of was! :) It’s not like I have very many followers anyways lol.

Lmao I literally don’t know what just happened. One minute I was enjoying my time at home, and the next, when I’m about to look at my music for the show I’m about to be in, my mother informs me that the main director for said show quit. She had really good reason to, if anything I’m glad she focused on that reason more so than the show, but I find it really funny (and kind of really stressful? Idk what I’m feeling rn tbh) that we haven’t even started rehearsals for this show, and it’s already falling apart. I don’t even have a major role in the show, all the main roles went to either a.) the (ex)directors son, or b.) the (ex)directors sons besties, which kinda makes this worse. Anyways if anyone has any fic recommendations that will keep my mind off of wtv the fck just happened this evening, I’d love to hear it. If not, that’s ok. Good night/evening/morning and have a good rest of your day/night <3

Ok, I know that Sel is probably the only one who is gonna see this, but my phone is about to lock for the night so if I try to text Sel or any of my other friends about this I’d probably just end up worrying them bc I’d leave/get locked out of my phone suddenly and wouldn’t be able to respond or whatever, so this is my best bet. I’m really insecure, specifically about my body. I’ve been way more confident in myself and my body the past couple weeks, even if my mom doesn’t really help. She’s constantly saying things in a way that tells me she’s trying to be nice about it, which she is being nicer than most people who bring it up in any sort of way, I think I’m just overly sensitive. Normally I just get the occasional, “Try not to snack too much” or “Are you sure you want/need seconds?” That hurts enough but I think I’ve gotten used to it. I’m a theater kid, and had auditions for a show recently. I genuinely didn’t care what I got, as long as it wasn’t one of the, like, 2 roles that I didn’t want. When I ended up with one of those roles I didn’t want my mom was trying to comfort me and ended up saying, “it’s alright, from what I gathered the directors were partially casting based on who would fit in the costumes they have. You got a role that they had a costume that would work for you, you’re probably a bit too…big..for many of the other female presenting roles.” I haven’t felt this insecure about my body in a really, really long time and it hurts and I don’t know what to do and I almost threw up my dinner when she said that

Hiiiii! Thanks for the follow!

I’ve had really bad anxiety the past couple of weeks, but it kinda just hit me like a truck a few days ago and my mom noticed. She’s pushing me to tell her what’s wrong, but every time I’ve ever talked to her about anything, she brushes it off and laughs or something. I’ve been crying basically all morning, and now she wants me to write down what’s wrong and let her read it since I can’t build up the courage to just straight up tell her, and my dumb ass wasn’t listening and promised I would try, and now I’m panicking because I have to give her a letter by the end of the day, and idk what to write that won’t immediately change how she sees me and she’s leaving the house for a bit, and I’m rambling bye

So ik I already don’t really talk that much on here, but I’m going camping, so I won’t be on here at all for a few days. I’m going to be completely honest, I love camping, but the last time I went to this specific camp I spent the entire time trying not to say the wrong things bc apparently every single girl there will judge, and don’t care if it makes you cry. Also I’m like 90% that basically everyone there is homophobic, so I’m insanely worried I’m going to say something weird that will make everyone give me even more weird looks. To put it simply, I don’t want to go after last years experience, but I hope you guys have a good weekend!

hey u gonna appear on here again Snake?