@This_Is_Zahra
So I failed my final exam and I have to wait one whole year for another try (yes, one whole year, my faculty is just d*mb with this).
So get ready for new chapters and books because this girl is pi**ed (because one of the three teachers was just plain j*rk) and wants to write a lot.
Get ready for new books because I don't mind anymore, I'm ready to have 10 books that I'll slowly write.
5A.M and I'm wake up because today I have my final exam.
I'm so stress and afraid
28.5...that's date of my final exam. And you know what? I don't know anything...I'm so scared that I will fail. I have feeling that I don't know anything...I'm in so much stress and nervous...I sleep bad, eating small portion, I'm in constant stress...Guys I will fail, I just know it
My procrastination knows no bounds.
Instead of studying for final exams, I created a presentation for a book I'm writing. It's not fanfiction. It's just a book about a university romance. I created a presentation with each character and something about them. Slides with story ideas. Parts of dialogues. Their past, their fears... Stop me and make me study
@This_Is_Zahra | lol I've been doing the same, just making covers and mood boards AND my exam is tomorrow TT
Sorry for not writing.
I have my finale exams at the end of May so I try to study.
I wasn't nervous at all but I'm nervous more and more with every day.
I really have to pass, have to...I'm really scared because I feel like the most stupid person...I'll screw up how I know myself and never get a degree
I don't want hockey season to end but...i need to sleep. I wake up at 2 A.M for the game and sleep around 3 hours only XD
That's what European fans need to sacrifice...sleeping for entertainment
@ ASH-BUBBLE f1 times only in asia and australia - that's around 5 A.M...America is around 10 P.M so it's okay (I normaly going tot sleep around 12 P.M, so it doesn't metter to me). Europe is in normal time, mostly around 3-4P.M...but Hockey? Normal time is around 2-3 A.M
So...it's worse...For like three days already? I don't know exact number...I refuse to eat. I'm hungey and I know I need to eat but my head just say no to every food I see...My mental health is not the best right now. Everything I see is how people around me looks and I'm just sad that I look like I look
@ emsreader05 i'm going to gym for year...and the most frustrated thing is, I never lost weight. Good thing is in that year i didn't gain a weight too but I hope I will lost at least 5 kilos, but no. My body decided that i will be on my weight and never move again
@ emsreader05 i know but it's hard when your fat friend is suddenly skinny and you are now the fat friend...
These are the only things that keep me happy these days is Smii7y, Daukey, Sovi, Yumi, hockey (my favourite NHL team got into playoffs) and rewatching my favourite figure skating performances ❤️
Hope you all doing better than me
@This_Is_Zahra with me it’s adrenaline, tennis, and the hope that f1’s coming back in a few wks
Sorry for not writing much. I try to do something whole day because only like that I don't think about how ugly I am, how fat I am, how I am 23 and never had boyfriend and never slept with someone...When I relax these things come back to my head and I just can't...
@This_Is_Zahra babe don't talk to yourself like that and i hope your doing better ✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧ sending hugs & kisses
You know you are the worst looking sibling when you put your old clothes (that is mostly too small for you) away and your mom say that some of the clothes will fit on your older sister...