Reingard

IM! FUCKING! BAAACKKKK!!! What's good, gang? Guess what? I got my phone and stuff taken away for a long while because my parents found out I was trans. Oof. Sucks like hell. BUT FUCKING GUESS WHAT? YO BITCH IS FUCKING BACK! A lot has happened since I left, so lemme give y'all a rundown.
          
          1. IM BACK IN THE FUCKING BUILDING AGAIN?! A long-buried enthusiasm for Star Trek has resurfaced because I watched Deep Space Nine. Yep. 
          
          2. I also got into the Osmosis Jones fandom. Yippee?
          
          3. IM DATING MY BEST FRIEND <3! Now I have someone who will be with me through everything, and I know that for sure! Especially through college, which is scary for me and for them!
          
          4: I might be autistic? (might is an understatement)
          
          5: I'm working on starting up a metal band! I like industrial metal, so that's what I'll do!
          
          6: I got to go to my first metal concert last year! It was Judas Priest, and Sabaton was opening for them! It was absolutely awesome!
          
          7: I've gotten better at writing I think and I'll be posting more stuff. I actually have original ideas for stories now, not just fanfic.
          
          8: I got an electric guitar and I'm teaching myself how to play! 
          
          9: Life feels just a bit better in general. I already know what college I want to go to, and the excitement of finally moving away is helping motivate me to do things.
          
          Anyways IM BACK MOTHERFUCKERS! And I probably won't take a massive hiatus like that again... hopefully... maybe?

TW: Ranting, religious trauma
          
          Okay, so… the reality of life has set in now that it’s summer and I have time to think about things. And I’ve realised, damn, adulthood is almost right around the corner. It’s simultaneously exciting and terrifying. I’ll have to move out in about three years to go to college despite not even being completely sure about what I want to do in the future. Sure I know I want to go into the medical field, but I’m unsure whether I want to be a radiologist or a mortician. But that’s not what scares me the most. What scares me the most is that I’ll finally have freedom to transition. And that’s terrifying to me. Years and years of conservative rhetoric has stuck into my mind and, even though I know Jesus loves me how I am, I’m terrified that I’m going to end up in hell. Just thinking about the future is enough to send me spiralling into a mental breakdown. I have too many things to learn before I’m an adult and I feel like I don’t have enough time to learn them all. Not only that, but I’m almost 100% sure that I’ll have to go no-contact with my conservative family because I’ll be openly trans and gay in the future. It’s hard. I’ve spent my whole life bonding with these people and even if they won’t love me, I can’t stop loving them. And I feel bad for my siblings I’ll have to leave behind to be yelled at and possibly even hurt by my parents. My older sister has already moved out and escaped because she got married about ten days ago. I know I’m next. It’s terrifying to think about. I’m terrified that I’ll be witch-hunted by my family. I’m terrified that I’ll end up getting married in a dress to a man like my father. I’m terrified to leave my extended family save for one aunt who isn’t homophobic or transphobic. I don’t know what to do from here on out. I could use some advice maybe, though I’m not sure how much that’s going to help. Anyways, I love you all. <3

Also, I just wanted to say, I know I have, like a thousand stories, but I will be releasing a story I wrote about my TF2 OC because it took me ALL of freshman year to write and I'm very proud of both my OC and her story, so that'll be coming out!

Okej! I'm back for real this time! It's been a very hectic year for me what with feeling alienated and alone at home and finding out things about myself! I hope everyone's doing well, and I should be back to posting (BETTER QUALITY I SWEAR) content! :)

im confused google said 
          "uran·​ic. yəˈranik, yüˈr- : of, relating to, or containing uranium. used especially of compounds in which this element has a valence higher than in uranous compounds."

I love writing romantic/sexual tension between two characters. >:)
          
          Also, hello!! :D

OMG OMG AO3 IS UNBLOCKED ON MY SCHOOLS COMPUTER

HELP I'M READING WATTPAD AND THIS OLD ASS SUBSTITUTE WANTED TO READ WITH ME AND HE LIKED IT

WHY AREN'T YOU ANSWERING MY CALLS GIRL

So I had an AI generate lyrics about the TF2 mercs in the style of Sabaton-
          
          Yall be on the lookout for new TF2 music maybe?