Hey, don't go hard to yourself. You were trying your best after all. Don't listen to those people who hate you, I have experience the same thing, the whole world did, but if you look at the bright side and think something that makes you happy and comfortable, and ignore those words that hurt you, you'll find something interest and might caught everyone's attention without sending hates toward you. So don't give up, and stay determination. ✧(。•̀ᴗ-)✧
I might not be a great therapy for everyone, even myself but I will try to give you my advices as I can. (◍•ᴗ•◍)