ZeSovietMan

Happy Chinese New Year to those who celebrate!

AmbarAnak

@ZeSovietMan Happy Chinese New Year to you, Soviet!
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ZeSovietMan

I just had a mini heart attack, I got hit by the blue screen of death. But when I restarted the PC it was normal.
          
          This has been a shitty month

baaxter5889

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@ZeSovietMan My car was recently a victim of a vandal....shit's completely totaled
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RomaTsarenko

@ZeSovietMan I have no problem my PC and no have a blue screen of death! My PC  working normal!
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ZeSovietMan

@Red_Actual Thats the thing, when I booted the PC back on it was all normal
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ZeSovietMan

The knife is getting closer again, guys. I can feel the cold metal slowly pierce my skin, but I just can't do it. I don't know what to do, the burnout, mental breakdown, everything is getting too much for me.
          
          I can't understand this. Why am I like this. Where did it all go wrong? Was it just too much trauma building up inside, and it's only coming out now.
          
          Or is there just too much happening now, and it's starting to affect me. I don't know, I don't know what to do, what to feel, how to handle it.
          
          I'm starting to lose my mind. Nothing is becoming fun anymore. Nothing interests me anymore, and I have nobody in real life to help me through this. All I can think of is the peace and the good that's going to happen when I do, do it.
          
          Mom has one less person to deal with, alongside the less money she has to spend to feed one less mouth. Nobody has to deal with the stupid things I say, do, and think that always ends badly. One less person to worry about, no more suffering alone, no more suffering in general.

Red_Actual

@ZeSovietMan Don’t do it, Trust me, I’ve tried, The scars don’t go away when you do. 
            
            Life hits you like a truck sometimes, It does, After all we live in a world where *nobody* is the main character, like you’re an extra in a Avengers movie. You’ll get through it, Keep pursuing your dreams, you aren’t legally binded to your parents when you’re 18, why would they care what you make money from?
            
            Take your time to press your computers power button and- as Kruz80’s said above me, look at life in a different way, Ignore the politics, ignore your parents, We’re all strangers here. We’re only people to support you, not to guide you, Take what the Universe (or god) will give you an enjoy it.
            
            I don’t know your situation, I’d recommend going to a therapist and vent, Get a pillow or something, let the rage out.
            
            We’re here if you ever need to return, We’re here if you decide to leave. 
            
            I pray you get better, Let your wisdom and gut guide you, Therapy is a good option, I’d recommend that, Find something you like, If it helps, mine’s posing and animating stuff, you are worth every single stage of evolution that our species has ever went on to have.
            
            You are worth it.
            
            Blessings.
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Kruz80

@ZeSovietMan respectfully. Don't complain on here, get off the internet for a while and try to figure out what you wanna do in life. don't waste your time talking to strangers like us but instead find joy in even the smallest things and grab onto that joy. Let it guide you
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YakuzaLover

@ZeSovietMan We're here if you need just please don't I know how you feel I've been in that dark spot before many times don't give up Soviet please if you need someone to talk to talk to us don't just end your life this community welcomes you and if you need help come to us but please Soviet never ever turn to the knife or the noose I've tried it once or twice it's horrible Soviet we'll help you every step of the way to recovery
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