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Hi darling what happened to @PostScriptRegrets 

Well good morning Europe and Most of Asia, good afternoon Australia and good evening America. My dumbarse just stayed up whole night bc I just couldn't sleep and was like "Well I was already awake for past like what 20 something hours at least I'll wait for my parents to come home at 4 pm so I can take a nap" (it is 6 am rn mind you) and I went to the kitchen, grabbed a banana like I always do when I didn't get sleep for 24h and I wondered why my dad and mom aren't still awake since they are usually up by 5:30. I went to my balcony to watch the birds fly in every pattern possible went back inside to throw the peel and then I see the clock and I saw that it was 5:50. Now I was really weirded out by they should be up. As I went to take my phone to continue with what I was doing whole night I just then saw that it was Daturday. I lost so much track of time and stayed up for past 3 months to at least 2 am that I dk what day it is anymore and that school is going to start soon. Also apparently there is going to be meteor shower either tonight or tomorrow night. I am quite excited for that

My head hurts. I came to my grandparents place this afternoon and finally meet up with my sister after who knows how long. Now every single time (idk how) we come to the theme of LGBTQ+ and oh lord idk if my sister is homophobic or not. As far as I know she is okay with gay, lesbian and bisexual people but the moment I brought up pansexuals, non-binary and trangander people it like all logic was thrown out of window. It's like I was trying to explain to a 3 year old why and how is grass green to the detail. I love my sistern I really do she is my only sister and the only other person I can talk about stuff that others think are either stupid or don't like, but I am genuinely scared what will happen if one of niece or nephews tell her that they are either into same sex or that they are trans. Like she plans to have 5 kids and I know for a fact that at least one of them is going to be gay. I know that I would immediately take them in but god I don't want such scenes to happen where my niece/nephew need to search for shelter bc their mom doesn't understand how they feel. It even bizzare the way she think how trans people think they are trans. I even went so far that I had to explain diffrence between sex and gender. I, who barely knows anything about biology (unless it's about animals) explained in detail (bc I was researching about trans and non-binary people like a year or 2 ago to underatand them better) how  it actually works but I think she still doesn't get it. I don't even know how she is homophobic, she literally told me that my aunt, uncle and even my younger brother who is constantly surrounded by homophobic ppl support LGBTQ+. Anyways I'm going on a search now for an animatic about non-binary and trans ppl. It helped me change her mind about gay ppl so maybe this could work too

Well would you look at that. It's time for my week long bleeding spree! Okay no that sounds weird. But seriously now can someobody help me. My chest, my stomach and my head hurts whole day long. I popped in past 6 hours like 4 or 5 pills as if they are gummy bears and they didn't do crap to help me. I am supposed to (based on the instructions) drink one pill every six hours I am pretty sure that if I pop in another one I'll overdose but then again I think the pain will kill me b4 the pills do. I know I am being overdramatic but it hurts so baddd. 

Somebody please kill me. I was just coming back home bc I left to go leave my documents I need to attend high school. I went with a few of my friends and one of them has quite big boobs. That's going to be important soon. So we were going back home and we stood in front of my friends house since she leaves the nearest to school. As we were talking we came to a topic that was related to food. As I was about to add something I forgot how to say milk in my language so I zoned out and tried to remember how to say it. When I zone out I stare intensely at one dot and noting can snap me out of it, which means you can move anything or anyone in front of me and I won't react. As I was getting close to remembering  my friend stood in front of me and since she is shorter than me I ended up looking at her boobs. Now when I remember something while I zone out I will start saying the word I am trying to remember. And oh lord I said while looking at my friends boobs "Mmm milk" . By the time I realized what happened everyone started laughing and I explained myself but that made them laugh harder and now this became an inside joke in my friend group. How do I know? They are sending "Mmm milk" in the group chat

It is raining heavily and me and m friend (Mario) are stuck under our school roof. This wouldn't be a problem but he is singing old ballads on top of his lungs. HELPP

Okay this is the 4th time this month that I have been awaken by a dude singing and playing gusle in 4 fricking am. By the way "gusle" is an instrument that was invented in my country. It is like a mix of a violin and a giutar except it has only one string. They are  very well know bc of a guy who used to rule this country. They also know for being  VERY LOUD. Like there is a field between my building and his house and the fricking field is as big as the football cort  that's near by if not bigger. Like I'm not joking my building is placed at the start of the field and his house is at the end of it and I hear him from here. Apperantly I am also the only one who hears this dude at night bc when i bring it up to my mom (who is a light sleeper) she says she hears nothing at noght except dad going to the bathroom like 3 times in 20 minutes

I got my phone taken away again so I'll not be active for maybe 3 at most 5 days

Okay um it just hit me that I am going to have prom tonight and that I'm going to never step a foot inside this school anymore and I don't know if I should be happy or upset anymore.

Okay so a few hours ago a big wave of nostalgia hit me when my brother was watching some old tv shows that used to watch as a kid. I remembered 3 very old movies I would watch on repeat in 1st grade almost every 2 weeks. I rewatched all three of them and the last movie I watched is called Kirikou and the Sorceress. Now I loved this movie as a kid and to this day I love it. The animation, the scenes and the backrounds are just mesmerizing but the only thing that bugs me is the end. Before watching the Kirikou a memory popped up where I was very confused and felt weird after the movie Kirikou (and I know it was Kirikou bc I remembered the credits) but I brushed it off. I can with confidence say that I love the movie but I feel extreamly weird. I will not say what happens in the end because a) this movie is a master piece (in my opinion) b) I think you will enjoy it c) I don't want to spoil it. The only spoiler here is that the end is weird. Oh and one more thing. In the Nickelodeon series called "100 things to do before high school" episode "Always say the truth" at the very end there is a scene that I personally think is adorable and as a kid I loved that scene very much (i still do). I can see why now.