I know you may not read this or even answer it, but I really can't explain the emotions BTL made me feel, and I'm 100% sure I'm not the only one. I grew up with 5H, I read this when I was a teen with a very poor English and now being an adult, that learned English, I wanted to feel those emotions again, and I had to resign myself to read part of it in Spanish because nobody was able to get the full story. I do feel a little bit stupid by even telling you this.
I know you deleted the fic, and you explained your reasons. The only question I have is, are you going to repost it some day?
I really wish you all the best, and sorry if it sounds disrespectful to you,
-A