Hello everyone. I have been really mia here, it's mainly because I just was and still am in a really hard depressive phase. I have been for probably three years, but as everyone else I tried to pretend everything is fine. Which it isn't. I am not fine and I can't pretend I am any longer. I am starting a program next week which is therapy for depression. It's offered in my city and my health insurance company offers to pay for it wholly. After that I probably have to go see a therapist still, but they will help me find a good one too.
Also a side note I have been trying to write it has been an on and off for the last two years. Me trying to write because I love it vs. My depression making me not want to do anything. I just felt like everyone should know why I haven't updated anything in a while. Why I haven't been on here at all. Except for a few times I actually checked on comments and answered one or two. I didn't mean to ignore anyone really. I just haven't been on here the way my friend Mysha was for example. I haven't read a book on here in a while too. And I am not telling this for anyone to give me sympathy I just wanted to explain what is happening and why I haven't been here at all.
Love you all and if you are feeling depressed too please seek help anywhere.