Hello readers,
It's been a long time since I came here to share my own feelings. I know everyone's frustrated because of late updates, sometimes circumstances aren't helping, sometimes it's the issue the app is creating. I pour my heart out in a chapter just to wake up in the morning and find 5k words erased, vanished due to a glitch they called in this so called app. But currently it's not this thing bothering me. I fall in love with all of my characters I write even if they're hated the most by some other people. I just love those characters. And writing their suffering phase, where they're completely shattered is more than just tough. It's the toughest thing to write. You can't do that without crying, without sobbing, without those trembling hands. I don't know..but it happened to me during the previous chapter too. And while writing the new one, I type almost 7 to 8k words and this time each word is making me give up. I keep my phone away for sometime and let my tears fall. So, I don't know maybe I'm just so much in love with them. I am actually not able to write further. My hands can't, my mind can't, I can't...yet... I have to because...of course it's a phase which will pass. This is actually one of the reasons I am taking a long time to update. I do have some exams here and there, I travelled but nothing bothered me more than having a nightmare of that scene where Zaid wanted to scream but couldn't. I literally had a dream. I'm not exaggerating but this is how much I'm connected to them. I just hope you will all try to understand what I am going through while writing those 8k words where it's nothing else except pain and agony.
Thank you.