I'll redecorate my room
I'll wax my legs
I'll create an entire timetable
I'll go online shopping
I'll buy a new book
I'll eat
I'll water my plants
I'll try on all of my clothes again
I'll stare at the ceiling
I'll even exercise
But I won't freaking study.
10 minutes until I turn 18.
I'm crying
And banging my head against my bedroom wall
Because
In 10 minutes I'm going to be an adult
And I really
Really
Don't want to be one
When someone is so FUCKING dumb it makes you physically writhe in pain and oh my fucking goodness I need to fucking punch something right fucking now help and I need to bloody scream and get out of this fucking house. But I fucking can't. Fucking yay.
How does an extremely introverted female who's shy, brimming with anxiety and has an infinite list of insecurities...
Become a bubbly extrovert who is confident in every single situation and emits such an aura that everyone just loves her?