cicimato

Guys, I have a confession to make. I'm not so sure I want to finish Marked for Death. Especially since I know it's been an uneventful bore, and I have more exciting plans coming up, but I'm just not feeling the motivation for this story anymore. And I hate not finishing things too. Thoughts? Complaints?

golden_streets

@cicimato hi!! I recently just started uploading my story. I'm gonna admit it's been a slow process with school, work, and everything it entails. To answer your question, yes, that happened to me a lot. I don't necessarily feel displeased, but I do get a feeling as if I could've done more with that chapter. The way I get over that feeling is by trusting that I did my absolute best, and remembering that I'm not trying to write like everyone else;I am just trying to write like myself. If it really is the best idea you've ever have, try revising it before giving up on it. Try and focus on the things you like about your story, and develop on that. And if you really don't think its worth saving after some good contemplation and wine, then I really hope something new and orphic inspires you.
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cicimato

@golden_streets Thank you for the response! The problem, though, is I'm not proud of it. The concept still excites me (it's probably one of the best story ideas I've ever had - based on a dream I had by the way), but the result was disappointing. I should've done a lot more developing and brainstorming before writing, or at least posting. I introduced a lot of characters in the first two chapters - them being Daisy and Tristan's families, but then completely forgot about them. That's why Chase was shoehorned into the horseback riding scene. And he didn't even play a huge role, he was in the background! GAH, SUCH LAZY WRITING I PULLED. I also had the problem of having the beginning and the end figured out, but just winging it the middle, and not in a good way. Believe me when I say I'm jealous of authors who have no need for outlining. Unfortunately, I am the outlining type. Of course, I'd love to finish it. I hate not finishing projects too. But I think I have a lot to figure out until then. I know no draft is perfect, but every time I posted something new I found myself feeling very unpleased. How do you deal with that feeling (if at all)?
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golden_streets

@cicimato Hi!! How are you? I think that you should finish Marked for Death. If it's something that your proud of, and you've written a decent amount of chapters, than there's nothing stopping you from finishing it. I know what it's like to start something and then not finish it, which is why most of what I write are just ideas(with the exception of the story I've already posted). :-) Give it some thought. I hope you finish the story.
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cicimato

Guys, I have a confession to make. I'm not so sure I want to finish Marked for Death. Especially since I know it's been an uneventful bore, and I have more exciting plans coming up, but I'm just not feeling the motivation for this story anymore. And I hate not finishing things too. Thoughts? Complaints?

golden_streets

@cicimato hi!! I recently just started uploading my story. I'm gonna admit it's been a slow process with school, work, and everything it entails. To answer your question, yes, that happened to me a lot. I don't necessarily feel displeased, but I do get a feeling as if I could've done more with that chapter. The way I get over that feeling is by trusting that I did my absolute best, and remembering that I'm not trying to write like everyone else;I am just trying to write like myself. If it really is the best idea you've ever have, try revising it before giving up on it. Try and focus on the things you like about your story, and develop on that. And if you really don't think its worth saving after some good contemplation and wine, then I really hope something new and orphic inspires you.
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cicimato

@golden_streets Thank you for the response! The problem, though, is I'm not proud of it. The concept still excites me (it's probably one of the best story ideas I've ever had - based on a dream I had by the way), but the result was disappointing. I should've done a lot more developing and brainstorming before writing, or at least posting. I introduced a lot of characters in the first two chapters - them being Daisy and Tristan's families, but then completely forgot about them. That's why Chase was shoehorned into the horseback riding scene. And he didn't even play a huge role, he was in the background! GAH, SUCH LAZY WRITING I PULLED. I also had the problem of having the beginning and the end figured out, but just winging it the middle, and not in a good way. Believe me when I say I'm jealous of authors who have no need for outlining. Unfortunately, I am the outlining type. Of course, I'd love to finish it. I hate not finishing projects too. But I think I have a lot to figure out until then. I know no draft is perfect, but every time I posted something new I found myself feeling very unpleased. How do you deal with that feeling (if at all)?
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golden_streets

@cicimato Hi!! How are you? I think that you should finish Marked for Death. If it's something that your proud of, and you've written a decent amount of chapters, than there's nothing stopping you from finishing it. I know what it's like to start something and then not finish it, which is why most of what I write are just ideas(with the exception of the story I've already posted). :-) Give it some thought. I hope you finish the story.
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cicimato

Today I graduated from West Chester University. I’m so glad to have completed this chapter of my life, but as I turn the page to the next, I can’t help but feel a little skittish. How will I fare in the workforce? Will I make it in the publishing industry (even if just behind-the-scenes, because that would be cool)? Or in any career for that matter? And the fear doesn't just lie in career-related successes or failures, but in pretty much everything, if I'm honest. I've lost touch with a lot of friends over the years, especially as many are getting their own lives rolling (some of them have great jobs, others have already started families...), how can I be sure I'll make more or reconnect with others? I've always struggled with loneliness... Will I ever find that special someone? Me? Who's never been successful at relationships or even just dating? How long until I'm living on my own and will I be all right? The questions and fears just swim in my head like a whirlpool, spiraling into the depths... I'm sorry to dump all these on you. You, who has their own problems (I doubt many will even read this whole thing, I'm just ranting for me). 
          
          I've spent a great deal of time away from MFD, so it may be hard to get back in, but I'll see what I can do. I hope, now that I don't have papers, exams, or anything to worry about from now on, I can spent more time writing, whether it's for here or serious endeavors. 
          
          Onward and upward!

cicimato

@golden_streets Thank you!
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golden_streets

@cicimato Congratulations on finishing College!! What a huge achievement!!
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cicimato

@FognaciousQuash You'll get there too, we both will.
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cicimato

Guess who's graduating from college tomorrow? Yay!! (I hope to get back to MFD this summer, in between job hunting and coping with existential dread.) (Also, hopefully with no more papers and tests to worry about, I can focus more on writing.)

cicimato

@FognaciousQuash Thank you!! :)
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FognaciousQuash

Oh snap, congratulations!
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cicimato

Marked for Death chapter six is now available. I had more planned but I got worried that the chapter was getting lengthy already (probably a bad choice, I'll admit). But  I hope to have chapter seven up by the end of next week.