Hey! Long time to see.. I just wanted to let people know that I've been gone for so long since I've developed Anhedonia. I had another version of this but unfortunately it got deleted. I actually almost gave up completely and went to sleep.
For those who don't know, Anhedonia is a psychological condition that involves a persistent inability to feel pleasure or enjoyment from activities that would normally be pleasurable. It can manifest as a general lack of interest in life, or as a difficulty experiencing pleasure in specific areas, such as relationships, hobbies, or work. This is why I haven't updated anything in a long time.
It has been really hard for me to get out of my bed at times and do school/homework which has lowered my grade alot, I have so, SO, SO many ideas that I want to put out to the world! So many things I can easily learn! But I just get a deep wave of sadness and give it all up. There are so many talented people out there that I want to be like, write like, play like, and it just hurts me more each time I fail to even try.
I also want to say big thanks to @Potati174 and @BroKendank for making me laugh and distract me from this condition.. My friends and family really are the only reason I'm still hanging on to this day. I really am inspired to be more like them and hopefully one day I will be able to get rid of this. I also want to say thank you to the people reading this. I have been motivated by everyone to continue ESR and better my writing skills before I started to develop Anhedonia.
I don't know when I'll fix this or get tired of it all, but I just felt the need to give any sort of update here.. To say why I have been so distant from Wattpad and other websites. That will be all, thank you for your time.
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-Cloud