dteamandtommy

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          	hey guys, i fucking lied and i am so sorry. up until a couple weeks ago i havent been in a good state of mind. i was trying to use my energy to help other people in my life, and they werent leeches, they were just reslly fucked up, and i let you guys down and i am so fucking sorry. im writing this at 11:23 pm on a thursday night and i am so fucking angry at myself. i let myself and others down and i am so so fucking sorry. the recent passing of technoblade also fucked me up but i am doing better now, im getting back into mcyt and i will try my best to get stuff out to you guys but i am so sorry. i know mostly everyone is here for kays stuff but the people who are here for me as well, im so sorry, life shit on me hard and i will try to do better. im posting this now at 11:30. im sorry.

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dteamandtommy

also this is aero if you couldnt tell ‍♂️
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dteamandtommy

this message may be offensive
(tw) strong language and mentions of depression
          
          hey guys, i fucking lied and i am so sorry. up until a couple weeks ago i havent been in a good state of mind. i was trying to use my energy to help other people in my life, and they werent leeches, they were just reslly fucked up, and i let you guys down and i am so fucking sorry. im writing this at 11:23 pm on a thursday night and i am so fucking angry at myself. i let myself and others down and i am so so fucking sorry. the recent passing of technoblade also fucked me up but i am doing better now, im getting back into mcyt and i will try my best to get stuff out to you guys but i am so sorry. i know mostly everyone is here for kays stuff but the people who are here for me as well, im so sorry, life shit on me hard and i will try to do better. im posting this now at 11:30. im sorry.

B0R3DG1RL5

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dteamandtommy

also this is aero if you couldnt tell ‍♂️
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dteamandtommy

i lied on my recent update guys everything isn’t fine and idk i feel hopeless rn and im sorry this probablt seems super weird to post on here but im so desperate i feel so alone right now and i don’t know what to do 
          -kay

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@dteamandtommy *****sending virtual hug*****
            
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Perpd1w3

@dteamandtommy life is a hell of a ride you just need to be ok with it
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FelyCoa

@dteamandtommy just know that some people, including me, feel the same way. If you're tired you can take a break, posting isnt a full time job and yeah. Its not bad to tell people that you need a break because thats a requirement so spend as much time as you need to calm down. And apparently u need 8 hugs daily...
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dteamandtommy

i could also ignore the fact that i have work and watch tokyo revengers (for the second time btw) for the next 2 hours until i stress about the fact that i have to take a shower because i have to be up in less than 9 hours
          
          sorry guys i’m using this app like twitter now >:D

dteamandtommy

FVCK 
            -kay <3
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dteamandtommy

1 AM thoughts do i go take a shower and go to sleep because i have work in the morning and christmas shopping after with my boyfriend or do i work on the next chapter of my sequel
          so many options
          i’m tired and bored but love u guys !
          
          -kay

dteamandtommy

i forgot to sign my name with a heart sorry guys i’m so tired 
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dteamandtommy

well its been a while
          
          heya guys its aero here and i just want to apologize. im writing this as i just woke up less than an hour ago and while looking for a pencil i found my old notebook with the rest of dreamy eyes planned out. its been a really long time since me or kay have been on here. we kind of fell off the idea. i dont know about her but i kinda lost all the interest in dream smp stuff i had before. i am really sorry for leaving you all hanging :(
          
          i was reading through the comments and some of them made me sad thinking about how long its been. we are both in good health and okay. its good to know so many people care about you. but anyway i just wanted to clarify we are both okay. i want to come back and maybe finish dreamy eyes. i dont know if you guys want to see that but if you do, ill try my best. i dont know about kay but ill mention it to her.
          
          thank you everyone for all your concern. i really appreciate it and im sure kay does too! :) goodbye for now!