elflembas

I love that I made both of my LOTR oc's Salvadorian because I am Salvadorian. I felt like I needed to see some representation in fanfics! I never seen a Salvadorian in any of the books/fanfics that i've read.

elflembas

okay, i just need to rant. I want love so badly, like i physically just want someone to love me that is not family. I know i dont NEED love but I want it. It has been a dream of mine to find love since I was a kid, fascinated by the love stories I heard and read so much about. BUT i swear this generation makes it hard to find it. People sexualize everything or have 0 trust in anyone and its becoming too much for me. I just WANT TO FIND LOVE. I want someone to care for and cherish. I want someone to also give me the same amounts of love and cherish me. I want LOVE, its the reason for me reading about it everyday with fanfictions and stories bc i want to experience it so badly. I can go on longer but i wont for now. You can ignore this if you’d like

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@VhennFic Exactly  Like im not jealous of anyone truly, just the love. I see my sister always happy with her boyfriend and he looks at her so sweetly and im just here like “ when is it my turn?”
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elflembas

AND I DONT MEAN PHYSICALLY LOVE ME as in physical touch i mean like it’s emotionally and physically making me go insane that i do not or have not experienced romantic love ever. I’ve been pushed into relationships i do not want or I did not love them like a lover or I even had been played before, hence why I have not experienced it truly. It just pains me in every way
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elflembas

I am currently thinking about restarting two of my books because as I am reading the chapters, i don't really see where I am going with the story. Hence, why I haven't been updating like At all. I don't know what to write.

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I do wanna write, but I need something good. I want it to be more original.
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