erenjaeuwus
Maan i start college on Monday
oh and im 18 now lol yayish
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Anyone ever feel like they don’t belong anywhere? Like the smallest opinion or thought or even just existing, it makes others hate you for no reason?
Like how someone harassed me months ago over a ship opinion I had, when ironically this person was bullying people online who didn’t like a certain ship, then came at me threatening they were gonna beat me over an opinion.
Then a few days ago someone else told me that my opinion is bad and they hoped I choke and died.
Or even when someone asked their comment section a question about why people hate a certain character, so I gave my thoughts on that to answer their question, then this person only came to me to say they don’t care about my opinion.
Why are people so hateful? Over fiction too. Over small opinions. Sucks cause irl I never exactly fit in anywhere just because I wasn’t loud like everyone else or open on my interests, scared people would judge me.
Then the one times I’m actually trying to come out of my shell on social media, I’m being put back into it.
Idk just wanted to rant, I just feel like there’s nothing good about myself and all I am is just some dummy people project their hate and anger upon, threatening my life over random things like opinions or literally nothing sometimes too. Like if I just can’t belong anywhere because the second I open up or try to be nice, people shut me down by putting my life on a bet or something, wanting to harm or wishing death upon me.
I try to calm down and think “it’s not me, it’s them” but it’s happened so many times to where I feel like I’m the problem. I feel like the hated outcast irl and online sometimes.
I just feel I wanna disappear altogether.
erenjaeuwus
@yuuzailan so sorry this is late, thank you tho that really means a lot to hear <3 people are just asswipes :(( taking opinions way too personal to where they feel like threatening lives or wanting others dead will solve their narcissistic anger, it's embarrassing and upsetting to see how backwards people are...I've been doing better now, been off social media more often and enjoying my time and such, I'm okay tho, thank you <3
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@erenjaeuwus hihi, I hope things are going better now, I know it's hard but think this way, people who do this like hurt or say stuff that are extremely stupid, they are just jealous and don't want to accept opinions that aren't theirs, because inside them they just want to feel superior when they are nothing just little humans crying and afraid. So please don't let them make you feel bad, just ignore their stupidity, don't respond to their comments, bcs it will make them think that you care about their opinions of you
erenjaeuwus
How is everyone doing? : )
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never thought senior year would kick my ass this hard but yet here we are
my mind: wants to write, edit, draw
my motivation: thanos snapped
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Bruh the second hand embarrassment that I get from the random replies and notifications I get from comments I made from a year ago lmaoo lol anyways aside from summer school and my mental health being bitches, I’m slowly continuing my stories for sure now lol Instagram gave me so many ideas for Amasai I’m excited
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Holy shit I forgot I had wattpad Hahahaha
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Little update:
I used to write all of my fanfic stories and shit on my phone, but I completely stopped because idk I lost motivation lol
So I downloaded wattpad on my tablet so now I’ll for sure continue my stories a lot more from there (my tablet has an attachable keyboard) and I feel like typing on an actual keyboard for stories and essay shit is a lot more comfortable then on phone (aside from texting)
So I’ll slowly update my stories and oneshots now, I still need some time to adjust my mental health and severe anxiety, but for sure I’m not discontinuing anything :)
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@LadyKxt shUT uP OKAY >:((((( I’LL CONTINUE THE DAMN FANFICS WHEN I CAN BREATHE WELL ENOUGH
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Miraculous Ladybug Rant:
That awkward moment when your favorite straight ships in mlb are lukanette and adrigami, and favorite characters (besides Marc) are Luka and Kagami, but you can’t say anything because the fandom is a fucking dumpster fire of toxicity.
Then the new episodes had Lukanette and Adrigami break up and Adrienette shippers are celebrating and laughing at Lukanette and Adrigami shippers.
Im sorry but I know that Adrienette is endgame, but I hate it with a passion thanks to the shippers are literally twitter’s level of toxicity and immaturity. They send death threats to anyone who ships Marinette or Adrien with someone else that isn’t each other.
Unpopular opinion:
Kagami is a better person than Marinette. I love Lukanette but Luka deserves someone way better. Kagami’s past and life has been revealed many times in the show already to why her personality is strict and dominant. Her mom is very hard on her and Adrien was her only friend until she met Marinette. Kagami doesn’t know how to be nice because she seems to be a victim of Golden Child Syndrome like Adrien and honestly they were very good together. Marinette is a mary sue and a huge creepy obsessed stalker but the fandom is way too blind and stubborn to see that Kagami has her reasons while Marinette doesn’t.
I still like the show but honestly it’s a fucking mess and it’s very rushed.
I hate Adrienette, and the fandom ✌️ thanks for coming to my ted talk.
erenjaeuwus
I forgot I had wattpad wtf—
anyways sorry that I haven’t continued any of my books, writer’s block is a bitch + school + mental health
I’m not discontinuing any of my books either, when I get my motivation back, I’ll continue each one : )